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i am confused, very confused.
why did all the tears come now
why am i feeling so now
i promised to be strong.
i promised.
why cant i keep by this simple promise.
why i cant even face myself
i am hating myself now.
i am really BORED........................ :(
cant wait for tmr to start!
i miss teaching those kids,
so cute and lovely.
i am still BBBBOOORRREEEDDD.....................
a busy week ahead
cant wait for it to start................
i cant understand why the tv is so interesting.
just call me to be in front of the tv for two hrs.
i still feel bbbbooorrreeeddd...
lols.
my com internet is down.
so can only use my bro's.
and all the chinese words appear as squares to me.
so irritating.
rah.
i want to do something to my blog,
but cant.
cause my com is down.
talked to sebastian at the roof top ytd.
i guessed you know more than i do.
though i am still thinking,
but still, at least you gave me a direction.
i just do not have the courage to say nor try.
though ths gt pretty awkward at a pt of time,
but i guess i still have to do what i have to do,
if i really want what i want.
like what u said,
the tears that no one will see
the effort which no one will see
if i chose to hide away from the crowd.
it left a pretty deep impression on me.
perhaps a change is necessary,
perhaps i cant insist on it anymore.
to my friends out there,
i am still learning.
still learning.
so give me time and patience pls.
i am not sad or anything larhs (telling XD esp, lols)
just felt enlightened by so many pple these few days.
i guessed it's still a learning period for me.
whee!~
i am looking forward to next week!
lovely kids!
went shopping with HX and XD today (:
(: (: (:
hahas. smiles!
it was fun shopping with two guys. prom just ended and didnt have any mood to look at any clothes initially.
and finally i ate my Shi Lin Chicken today (: LOVES. okies. but i cant eat sinful food alr. cause of below. lols.
and XD as usual, being the pro fashion designer. hahas.
and HX brought that top that i thought was pretty nice and XD didnt think so =p
then XD wanted to watch the golden compass.
and he decided to treat me. (:
so went to watch golden compass and HX went off to work.
hope HX has a nice time at work (:
anyway, as for golden compass,
it was a pretty nice show larhs.
but it doesnt has an ending!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as i said, XD purposely chose a show that has part two so that i can treat him for part two! =p
went shopping with XD after watching the golden compass.
just suddenly feel like shopping after watching the movie
and wanted to get the very nice top i tried that day at heeren.
den being the usual fashion designer that XD is,
he brought me to those high end shops. LOLs.
quite fun larhs.
the way he gave me so many many different clothes to try.
and tell me what i shld wear and stuff.
i tried really alot alot alot of clothes.
and we entered HUGO BOSS. and the price is like.............
hahas. but anyway, i managed to eat my GELATO too! (:
and finally we got to zara after we went around and around.
pics!just two though! lols.
the formal top that i like (:
and the very very nice dress! but it was abit big for me. but the smaller size was too small. so XD said that i have to aim to get into the smaller size. which i think is.......... hmmmmm. and we had a pretty hard tym finding the scarf.
but i love the clothes that i tried. but.... i cant get them. that's what i dun like abt gg high end shops. cause i cant buy the clothes after trying. :(
they made me realised how big is this world and how simple minded i was. i am filled with these thoughts. hmmm.
anyway,
thanks HX and XD for making my day!
love ka-jiao-ing them. hahas.
and i still waiting for HY to finish her exams.hmmm.
but there is work tmr :(
nvm. it's fun seeing kids (:
okies. will update abt prom and NUS trip next tym! tada!
他还好吗 我多想爱他
那永恒的泪 凝固那一句话
也许可能蒸发
是谁的爱啊 比泪水坚强
轻声呼唤 就让我融化
每一滴雨水 演化成我翅膀
向着我爱的人追吧
using WU XUANDE lappy to blog now.LOLs.he is buying his fries. thought he said that we shldnt eat so sinful food? lols.
anyway, i have alot alot alot of ths to blog abt but work is starting tmr :(
i am dead beat. sighs. i hope i can blog soon. there are so many ths that i want to say. well, when am i not feeling emotional.
till i blogged,
just want to tell HX and XD that thanks for accomapanying me and giving me joy and happiness these few days. u two really made my day (: i hope i did too!
i still love my simple world but i guess there are times when i really need to wake myself up and accept the fact that this world is really not tt simple afterall. still, i am happy that XD, HX and HY are there to enlighten me on these matters (:
i cant believe that i am crying just because of that call
is it that impt
why is it affecting me so much.
i need e assurance so much now
i want to call him so much
but i guess he is too busy now
to bother abt me.
i feel like hiding somewhere outside now
i know i cant cry here.
i dont want my parents to worry further.
i am trying to get to slp
so as to forget all this unhappiness
but i cant i cant
i hate the tears
i want to get out
i need your shoulder
your jokes
your listening ear.
i dont want to be that strong in front of u anymore
i know i am not.
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