i dont know how some people can mug 24hrs non stop. at least i cant.
i have never felt so saturated before.
not even for olevels i think.
it's really up to the pt of saturation.
my brain really felt like it cant squeeze in any more facts anymore.
just a little bit more and it will threaten to go bonkers and forget everything.
but who am i to provide comfort for my tiny weeny brain.
when alevels is just one week away.
i just have to cont squeezing and squeezing and squeezing. i felt really really dead.
my only escape now is my dreamland.
i cld really felt the happiness once the time to slp comes.
that finally the day is over and i can slp.
but sleeping is a guilt.
perhaps ths are made more difficult when somehow ths took a turn btw ....
i have alot of ths to tell you
just like how you once told me to say ths when i felt not right
but well,
at this critical period
i guess even if i have a really really urgent need to tell u hw i felt abt the ths u did unknowingly
the upcoming A's is more urgent than anything.
i know that i have to stay positive
but somehow i felt like giving in.
i just cant wait for everything to be over.just over and release me.
but well, i wonder if i will be happy when ths are over.
cause it also mean that someths which i have been afraid of is gg to happen soon.
well
the irony of life.
i wonder why am i living.
tralalala. why am i blogging? lols. to show pple that i am not dead. LOLs. i think i am pretty high recently. hahas.
anyway, it is just to leave my blog on a high note larhs.
i am back to what i am and mugging hard for Alevels.
the last lap.
there are times when i am really afraid that i cant make it.
the new syallabus is just too unpredictable that it freaks me off.
but i guess alot of positive self talk for me now.
why must we be the guinea pig
if not, i think mugging will be so much easier.
i am always torn btw dd prelim papers or alevels papers.
and i am drowning in papers (luckily i know how to swim, but it's swimming in water but not paper :P)
and i am gg broke soon from buying things from zap. lols
and to qien, sebastian, dihui, darren and xin an:
mug hard!!! (:
to shoe, sue chee, ivan, glen and jiehan:
though we seldom get to mug in the library like before, just want to say jiayou kaes. loves too (:
alright. i guess i have left my blog on a pretty high note. shall go mug already (:
i thought that things would last for long
but apparently it was all an illusion from the start
perhaps the recent turn of events have caused all these
but i guess some things are better left unsaid
esp at this critical period
i will just try to keep everything in control
even if that means trying to put up a fake front
trying to smile when it's bleeding right inside
anyway, there is something really interesting in shoe's blog which i think it's really true.
you know you are a swimmer when....
If someone asks if you have any siblings and you start listing teammates, you might be a swimmer.
If whenever you hear an electronic beep, and you instinctively jump, you might be a swimmer.
If the phrase "This set with fins" is better than hearing "You just won $1000," you might be a swimmer.
If a friend asks how a certain guy dresses and you reply, "I only see him without his clothes on" you might be a swimmer. [SPEEDOS!!!]
If you have to try on 30 shirts just to find one that fits your shoulders, you might be a female swimmer.
If you have a permanent suit, goggle, and cap tan, you might be a swimmer.
If all you ever do is eat and sleep during school, you might be a swimmer.
If a practice of only 5000 yards sounds like heaven to you, you might be a swimmer.
(That's about 4.5 km)
If you are determined, strong, smart and tough, you might be a swimmer.
If the first thing you look at in a guy is abs, you might be a female (maybe even a male) swimmer.
If you sometimes have trouble walking because you aren't use to it, you might be a swimmer.
If jamming a piece of Styrofoam between your legs is not a kinky sexual activity, you might be a swimmer.
i miss the times when i could vent my anger and unhappiness through training.
i miss the times when i would just go round and round the pool, with no worries
i miss tjc swim team, i miss trainings, i miss nats though it was stressful at a certain pt in time.
everything is becoming a burden.
perhaps we shouldnt be what we are initially
if only time can go back
and i will only ask that
dun give me those beautiful memories
cause it's too much to bear
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