All That I've Got

Friday, November 30, 2007
-10:01:00 PM-

family day at wild wild wet (:
chalet with those little darlings (:
managed to get a job (:

family day at wild wild wet was fun
in that sense i managed to spend time with my parents.
and see them having fun. (:
though wild wild wet isnt that thrilling >.<
for once, i felt really relaxed (:

chalet with those little darlings (:
Indian Poker was fun.
but some of the punishment is really over.
hahas. but the guys are pretty on.
and poor darren slept on the floor.
i din noe until i woke up.

when i got to know that i got that job
i was relieved.
at least i am really doing what i like now
and felt that life was pretty more or less perfect now.
but perhaps that was just too fast a conclusion.

xuande(or rather nt him only) always says that my post are pretty depressing
but well, somehow i just have nth to blog abt those happy ths which happen
cause i dun like to describe the events one by one
but as for those events which are affecting me
the emotions are stronger i guess.

hmmmm.
he talked to me.
but i just duno how to reply.
i mean really,
if u ever know,
i am not angry at that matter.
but i really really really appreciate that u took the first step.
really appreciate.
there are alot of ths that i wish u all will know
but i just duno how to tell u all.
i cant help to admit tht there are subtle differences this time.
and i dun wish to avoid admitting to this feeling anymore.
but on a positive note,
i still believe that we are able to overcome whatever obstacles that may come along.
i know that u all mean too much to me to let go.
i duno if u all feel the same.
but i guess
well
i just duno what to say.
i cld only say all those to gurls.
to tell u all how i truly feel,
and why ths happen,
why there are misunderstandings
i guess it takes courage to say it out
and i thought i cld talk to u abt it during the chalet
but i guess things just clash and we just cant talk abt it
and perhaps that's fate.
i miss those times.
it's ironic how come we are not happier (or is it just me) when we do not have studies as a burden.
what exactly went wrong.

i am feeling less confident now.
i feel like abandoning what i have done.
i no longer has the confident to say it out.
somehow, i realised we are still that distant afterall.

and xuande will say abt me again.

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