It's left with Victory Dinner and soon it's stepping down from swimming. though there is still water polo, but things are gonna be different. just different. i miss the competitive stroke i have. monday swim was crap. i duno why. somehow i cant feel my stroke anymore. i feel weak. i dun have the motivation to go on. but well, i guess that's what happened after nats?
i guessed alot are disappointed in me for my results. sorry but i expected this outcome. i tried my best to work things out during the june hols, ensuring that i can balance training everyday and studies. but this is the best i can do, and the best i can make out of it. sorry but really, i tried my best. i promise to do better and bring out the best for my prelims.
and i guess i have to let you go at this moment. i think you know my stand. no doubt, i have to admit that i cant bear to do so, but for the sake of my Alevels and prelims, i guess i have to make a sacrifice. but it's really painful. really. i duno how to endure through. but i duno. get really jealous when i see some stuff. but what can i say. i kept asking myself, if i put myself in ur shoes, would i step back. and my immediate answer is yes. i will. i dun blame you for stepping back. i guess i have hurt u enough. but i really duno how to ensure that we both can be happy when i cldnt put in time and effort to maintain this "relationship" that we have. i am afraid of losing you. i am afraid of regrets. but i have to set my priorities right. but i cant bring myself to stop being jealous when i saw those things. i miss those times, i miss the past, i miss those messages, i miss you at this time, this moment. i guess i miss you even when u are just right beside me.
minmin, learn to focus and concentrate!
on a happier note, it's victory dinner and everyone will dress up tmr! yeah.
tjc swim team 06/07, we quarrel, we fight, but still we unite
August 2004
September 2004
October 2004
November 2004
December 2004
January 2005
February 2005
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
April 2008
June 2009