All That I've Got

Friday, June 29, 2007
-2:21:00 PM-

I swear that i have been through the most stressful period of my 17 years of life.
it's stress that lasted for one month.
tears that could fill i duno how many buckets.
finally it's all over.
the kind of LIBERATION
i yearn for it for duno how long

i am going to FLUNK MY JCT.
this time is for real
for every paper that i went for
i dun have the facts
dun have the knowledge
dun have everything

i m so dead.
and i haven tell my parents about it.
but what i really felt sad about is that
i really did study.
but perhaps, i didnt really manage to concentrate because of the everyday trainings.
but yar.
PRELIMS AND ALEVELS
my next fight
i must do well for that.
but i felt really really helpless for biology. haiz.

but before that,
it's NATIONALS that i am facing NEXT WEEK
i cant imagine that in just a week time,
my term in TJC SWIM TEAM is going to end like that.
no more
I HAVE TRAINING
I DID MY PB
I WANT TO TRAIN...
blah blah blah...

i guess more or less
the tears will come during Victory dinner
yea...
but well
i need to concentrate on my studies already...

and i still duno how to swim my 800m and 400m without cramps!
annoying can!
i actually cramped during BROKEN SWIM
like wth
it's just BROKEN SWIM
still will cramp
HELLO
what's wrong with me man.
but i m really scared about who am i going to face next tues and wed. ARGH.
can i just live in my lalala land.
i love today. cause it's no more JCT day.

walked arnd in SHENG SIONG with huiting just now
i realised how much i was deprived of the outside world
i got fasinated by everything
cause it has been so long since i last shopped with no worries and stress
and i really think that huiting just know me inside out man
hahhas.

and i guessed this period has been really really tough for me
thanks for standing by me (: i guessed there are many who have really brought me through this tough period. really appreciate all the encouragement, messages and calls. (:

i think stress can really make a person slim down.
i ate really alot during this jct.
chocolates, sweets, sweetened drinks blah blah blah
all those sinful stuff
and caramel corn which is 500kcal!
hahas
but i lost weight
LOLs
hope i dun gain back.

i m looking forward to the weekend! (:
finally it's outing with the many pple!!! and uh oh.
qien's and dihui's bday present is so gonna take up all my time
i hope i can make it in time!

and there is training later! and the last dinner after that :(
i will treasure each and every moment at ITE SIMEI with the swimmers from now on.

it was liberation from you during jct. and now with liberation from jct, u filled my mind once again. why cant i get liberated from you permenantly.

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