All That I've Got

Saturday, February 24, 2007
-10:47:00 PM-

Photos with SWEETIE!

i guess things wont get better and i dont know how.

the many crossroads which i am faced with. i really dont know which one to choose. how i wish that i could just predict the future and decide the path from here.

i miss her all of a sudden. it jus kind of dawn upon me that perhaps i wouldnt be so lost with her around. cos it was always her who provided me with support last year, the stressful period before promos. it was she who proved to me that the hard work will not be to no avail. but everything ended just like that. and i duno why. she was such a mature gurl. but i will never forget that phone call. the last call which we had. and i regretted not picking up that call this year. perhaps that call could change what it is now.

if only i could turn back time... and if only i could predict ur thoughts..

你为什么选择了放弃，为什么你总是为别人着想，但从没想过自己．．．也许也就因为如此，我才会那么惦记你．．．因为在这虚假的世界，只又你仍然选择相信这世界是美好的，你选择用真诚去感动我那已绝望的心．但是你的离开，又狠狠地把我从美梦唤醒．．．原来那美好的你是不存在的，我太天真了．．．

我很累．．．真的快要窒息了．．仿佛觉得我一经不知道什么是享受，什么是快乐，什么是真正从心里的微笑．．．已经好久没有那单纯的快乐．．．

我已失去了斗志，我不想在斗下去．．但我发现，原来人们只会利用你的弱点来狠狠地攻击你，攻击你那没防备的心．．．当脆弱的心已一次又一次地受到打击，又何从能复活，去相信人是善良的，是真诚的，为你所做的一切是没有心机的，是不要求回报的．为何我所面对的人（某些人）总是那么地不简单，所做的每一件事，表面上是要激励你，其实是要趁你不注意时，狠狠地咬你一口，把你的皮拨了，让你的肉体受尽折磨，让你的心灵无法承受那残酷的事实．．．

信念与信任，我曾经是如此地崇拜它们，但渐渐地发现，原来它也是背叛的其中只一．．．

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