All That I've Got

Sunday, November 12, 2006
-12:04:00 AM-

i dun understand wad happened btw us that caused ths to turn out this way. we were so close b4 that and u chose to turn away at this pt of time when we really cld get together and spend every moment under the sun.

and yet. u gave me a cold shoulder that left me felt that i m really at my wits' end. i messaged u. u nv replied. u shld noe hw sensitive i m towards such stuff, you especially. i told u once b4 about it.

wad exactly happened? i jus wan an ans. and after that, i wld give up and live life our own way. and let every happy moment that happened b4 be a history. but at least, i dun wan it to end when nothing has happened. wad has happened except that incident.but in the first place, why mus u bother so much about the incident when u noe nth about the real story.

u noe hw hurting it is when u chose to talk to someone about ur feelings instead of telling me straightaway. and i have to rely on that someone to noe hw u feel.

i have no courage to call. cos i dunnoe wad to say shld u pick up the phone. m i supposed to act as if everyth is fine and let's meet or shld i jus say everyth straight in ur face. i duno. i really duno. cos u chose not to tell me anyth.

looking at that key that u left behind, i really duno wad to do. the words on the keychain was exactly wad i wished to say. but i have no courage to say. but in the first place, is there such a need for those words. when nth has went wrong in the first place.

all i cld say is

from the very beginning. i have told u that i felt very lucky to have u by my side.
and nw is the same. but u left me.

so to me, i feel that living everyday is such a torture cos i still duno wad exactly happened and wanna noe but have no courage to. i have been trying to escape from reality. but when i woke up, nth has changed. and that hurts more.

i just wan an explanation. that's all. and if there is a need, we will just go our own way in the furture. and i wont bother u anymore.

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