All That I've Got

Saturday, October 14, 2006
-3:26:00 AM-

promos have been over.
but i dun feel that kinda joy.
cos i noe...
i aint gg to do welll...

was really sad for bio. cos i din go and take the paper. was dwn with gastric flu. like darn. why mus i be down with it during exams period. argh. and i cant retake the exam. sighs. there is nth i can do. ms teo kept telling me that i cant retake. i duno hw. that means i only have 3 core sub to depend on and my LEP sucks like hell. which means i really really mus pass my maths and chem. i needa get promoted.

i have alot of consequences to bear cos of my sucky exam results. i duno if i cld take the consequences or not. currently, the more i tink of it. the more i m fearful of it. and the more teary i get. i tried to keep my mind occupied. but i cant help but tink of it. i really under performed this time. wad exactly happened and wad exactly went wrong. i worked hard and get nth in the end. i really duno why.

i know there are certainly alot of pple who will really get good results. cos this is promos. not jct anymore. i duno wad will happen. i m really scared of wednesday.

today everyth was well until jus now. dinner with the swim team was fun. hahs. thanks ivan for the swensens earthquake. but i feel really fat cos of it. >.< talked alot with ms sue. hahs. it has been so long since we talked so much. open hse was tiring. very. cos i walked from the sports complex to booth to sports complex like duno hw many times.

hendrik was kinda funny jus now. hahs. i said hi to him den he was looking at me and said. hey u have really slimed down alot huhs. i was like oh thanks. so he came forward and shake my hands and said congrats. was kinda shocked. cos like ehs. no one has yet to shake my hands and congrats me cos of it. they only tell me. but thanks =)) u made my day!

jus now. i was jus kinda. emo?
but i have been putting up with it for v long.
wad's exactly wrong with them?
i dun get it why mus u all think that they are bad company.
just from LOOKS.
like hell.
why mus u all judge a book by its cover.
and we aint dd anyth illegal or wad.
we are merely talking and wanted to teach fen for her o's
wad's exactly wrong with that???????????????????????
i m really pissed cos of it.
what's wrong?
aint u all getting too paranoid about it.
hw have they led me astray?
am i not studying?
am i a drop- out now?
am i an ah lian now?
am i smoking, drinking now?
NO!
den wad's wrong?
didnt i mug harder cos i have them for company?
why mus u all judge things by the way u tink it shld be?
and for goodness sake.
stop being so conservative.
are u all expecting that my social circle wont have guy friends??!!!
and ONLY GALS.
that's like so totally impossible.
u all make me feel that i cant breathe at all.
i m pissed and v pissed about it.
i dare to say that no. they are not bad company.
stop being paranoid can?
it drives pple crazy.

pissed pissed and still pissed.

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