All That I've Got

Saturday, June 10, 2006
-10:17:00 PM-

my life revolves arnd swimming now. jus swimming. i love the trainings though. cos it makes me feel better and healthier. hahs. weird me. but well, i m disappointed at my performance. at this rate i m gg, how to get into FINALS?!!! grrr. but i love the swim team loads~ hahs.

next wk is the swimming camp. sumth that i look forward to yet am afraid of. it's 2 training sessions per day. and i guess one training session is 5++km? so it's 10 km per day. 0_0 i duno hw to survive. i dun mind being breathless. but i mind those muscle aches. cos even hw much u wish to swim and propel urself forward, ur arms dun allow u. my arms hurt like crazy after friday's training. i nid to recover fast enough for trainings!!!! =(

and i m totally scared bout JCT. sighs. i have nv felt so unprepared b4. not even when i was down for esplanade performance in sec 3.

sighs. i guess i can jus give up on my JCT. my swimming camp takes up my whole 3rd wk. like hw m i gg to study? sobs. sighs. i duno. i m v confused.

thanks mummy and daddy for understanding though. love both of u loads. =) i m jus so glad that i have both of u by my side always, supporting me =) love the huggs..

but daddy caused me to gain wt today!!!! sobs sobs sobs. cos he was there saying now taking a closer look at u, i realise u have really slim dwn alot (which i absolutely dun feel so, no one felt so lahs) u better dun skip meals.

so i was on the way to dinner with him. and hmmm. ate alot. considering that i nv train today. =( sobs.

and the world cup fever is now on. my TV is on every night. with the green field on it. hahs.

sighs. sorry for not meeting up with alot of pple. i miss loads of pple. i guess i will meet u pple up in july. or after july. aft my nationals and JCT. meanwhile, miss me~~~ hahs.

i cant believe i actually gave up the chance of seeing him. sighs.

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