All That I've Got

Sunday, June 11, 2006
-10:04:00 PM-

i really do love you all. but hw am i suppose to show you all that.
it seems that every action that i did
makes me seem as if i dun care about u all at all.
but yes.
i do
but hu will ever understand.

u all said that we dun understand. but have u all given us a chance to understand u all. i felt like i m deprive of the chance to know. u all chose to kip everyth from us. and begins talking about stuff that we duno. when we should know.

why m i getting jealous over that.
but i cant get over the fact that why can you do everyth for her but not for me when i jus wanted to borrow sumth from u. i dun understand. and that has been sumth which i couldnt understand since many years ago.

i felt like picking up the phone to talk to someone.
but at a lost at hu shld i call.
like who.
i mean i dun wanna talk to anyone.
cos no one will understand wad i m gg tru.
but i jus nid a shoulder to lean on.
as i m falling apart soon.

would u catch me shld i fall.
i guess no.
i guess i will jus fall and die.
wldnt that be better.

i have no faith at all.

i wana swim.
to forget everyth.
perhaps i may even drown.
and die that very moment.

_______________