All That I've Got

Thursday, June 29, 2006
-11:30:00 PM-

yeah! JCT IS OVER but apparently i dun feel any sign of relief. i guessed i wont do well in it. back in cchms, after any major exams, that kind of relief i felt jus fills up the whole heart of mine. i duno why i cant feel anyth now. perhaps. i m disappointed.

but i did my best already. i gave up my WHOLE june hols for this jct. in view of the trainings, i din go out at all. not a single day. i din even go for JJ concert at all. my dad and mum gave me the money for the tix. and yet i choose not to buy. jus cos i nid the sat to mug for chem paper. i did the best i cld. i mugged the best i cld. wadever the results is, i guess i cld only blame it on my stupidity.

i cant believe i finally lived tru bio and LEP. i hate and curse that person who put this two subs together. go and die lahs. he/she tinks LEP is a chi paper that u dun have to study for or izzit merely memorising of structures of essays and words. oh well. i noe. that person is not qualified to be an LEP student at all. that's why.

i lived tru bio and LEP without sleep. i cant believe i actually survived during both papers. given the fact that i slept for 2.5 hrs only on mon. den without slp on tues. back to cchms, i have nv study till cant slp. this explains the jc life. syllabus is jus so massive.

i kinda regretted entering tj. but i guess, i will still stay on bcos of the frens in tj if i were to choose a jc again. and of course, the swim team which i simply love to bits.

competition is coming. nats. the competition which we have trained so hard for. i have no confidence being a finalist at all. my timings sucks.

and i haven borrowed a blazer for speech day. dots. and i wont be gg sch next wk cos of competition. >.<

i m looking forward to sat. hees. it has been so long since the clique ROYALTIES get together. hahs. and i sure miss clarence. hahs.

i wanna go out, go shop.

and i din noe mugging can make u lose wt. kinda weird. hahs.

i wanna reach that wt b4 my bday. cos... >><<

and yeah! tmr got training le! lalalala. i missed swimming. hees. but. i dun wanna wear that swim suit. inferior. >.<

still have bio spa tmr. i cant squeeze the info into my memory full brain. but i look forward to the lunch. muahhaha. spa is so not spa at all.

though jct is over, it seems that i have loads of ths to do. sighs.

i wanna meet him.

can sumone jus help me get tru nationals?really scared.

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