All That I've Got

Thursday, April 13, 2006
-3:39:00 PM-

sorry. i din expect ths to turn out this way. ur words are really hurting. but yah. i noe i m at fault. perhaps u r jus not in the right mood. but still, all i can say is only a word of sorry. i will try my best to make both ends meet. n still, i noe u have put in alot of efforts. while i seem to be putting in 1/4 of urs only. i will try.

i really din wan ths to turn out this way. sumtimes, ur feelings, ur world, seems too complicated for me to understand.

sighs. i dun have mood for MARDI GRAS at all. but the thought of meeting elvin, janet and clarence sumhw consoled me.

perhaps i really tink too much. that's wad i gathered from the pple arnd me. but i cant stop myself from tinking so much. i duno. sumtimes i really wonder y shld i tolerate those ppl that do not matter at all. i mean, i have my emotions. i have my ups and downs too. i have FEELINGS. i m not that cheerful as i seem. laughing has nv been sumth i m good in. i m not that happy afterall. but jus tot that tolerance wld prevent a conflict. but my patience has reached its limit.

sumhw, i have the sudden urge to swim. it jus makes me forget all these problems that i m facing with.

but still, i m happy to have frens to bring me tru the obstacles tt i m facing now.

thanks Ms Fong for telling me so many ths. every chat with u gives me a sense of direction of wad i shld do about the probs that i m facing. yah. perhaps i shld stop tinking of all these small issues that are bothering me and sees ths in a bigger picture. ur words make me feel so much better. at least, liven my spirits and realise that it's no use wasting my time brooding over those probs when it's MARDI GRAS and fun today~

and yw too. thanks for the hug. hahaz. sorry tt my tears distracted u from ms fong's explanation and qns. >.< i din noe that the world outside is raining too. till u tell me.

i m tired. haiz. but i hafta hold on. shld i fall, everyth crumbles and i guess i will regret.

dui bu qi.

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