All That I've Got

Friday, April 07, 2006
-9:59:00 PM-

had a happy day today and a happy week~~~ alallalala. heexx. except wed bahz. was quite stress on this particular day. >.<

i love the meeting today~ though it may be short, but yah. it doesnt matter how long the time may be, as long as we met, talk and crap. enjoying every moment. hahaz. thanks to the person hu treated us SWENSENS. hahaz. i tink ur name v sensitive now. i duno when i can say, when i cant. so decided not to say. hahaz. but hmmm, dun worry lahz. in the future wont call u to treat le. hmmm, i wonder how much was the bill today. >.<

hmmm, den went for swimming at ITE simei. ehx, i was late. ehx, not counted late. i reached dere early. but cos no one there. so i went to the washroom to change. and the washroom is so wulu lahz. i was searching and searching. and cant find ani. after i change, the swim team arrive le. den mr loh was like "HUIMIN WHY ARE U LATE" >>>.<<<

i m super blur for swimming today.duno why. first, i was late. 2ndly, i swam the wrong stroke for the first set. was supposed to do free kick only. i did the whole stroke. *super paiseh* den ehx, aft that, we r supposed to swim in a line. den ehx, i bang onto Lisa. dots. den i was tinking, die le. mr loh will scold me le. in the end, mr loh did call us to cum out of the pool. to teach us how to do the high elbow pull. i was so super scared when he call us lahz. was like tinking. die le. certainly get scolded. >>.<< in the end, he was jus correcting our stroke. phew.

after that, the sets were alright.

oh and today mass swim i managed to do my personal best. but it was kinda funny when mr loh asked me," huimin why u swim so fast" hahaz. cos u r supposed to be tired after swimming the first few sets. den the last few sets the timing certainly not good one. but well, my timing improved as we did more sets. hahaz. funny me.

hmm. but cum to tink of it. ths haven been smooth on the other side. well. i duno. i feel extremely hurt when i saw those stuff. but i have to pretend that i dun care. that it doesnt matter to me. when it really matters. when i really wanna noe more. but i cant. my emotions are fighting a tough war with my brain. so much so that i felt like i m being spilt apart sumtimes.

i dun wan to live this kind of life. i wan to be rationale. i wan both my brain and heart to be rationale. i noe nth will cum out of this. but why m i still here. i m jus plain stupid.

there was a brief moment of time when i managed to escape from u. but now, it doesnt seem so. can i escape again?i dun wan to fall into the trap set by u again. it doesnt matter that i fall, but it hurts when u r the person hu trapped me, but refused to let me out. sighs.

perhaps my week wasnt that happy afterall.

i miss HIM loads. sighs.

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