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What Is Left Of Me
mInmIn
17
20th august 1989
Temasek Junior College
LOVES <3
Family
Friends
Tjc Swim Team
The special ONE
sobs. i m so afraid of swimming now. the trainings are getting really tough. was close to tears during the noon training sprint. so dead. how m i gg to survive every fri like this. MASS SWIM in the morn plus SWIMMING in the noon. and MASS SWIM sets aint easy at all. i m so scared of fridays now. ='( sobs.
n i injured myself w/o myself knowing. i tink i m so pro lahz. hahaz. it was until den and glendon told me den i realised. dots. and i tot wad dey were saying.
my mood fluctuates so much today. was quite guilty when shu qi asked me sum stuff n i sort of sound irritated. cos was really tired by the sets. sorry wor. >.<
n stupid me forgt to bring enuff money today. cos today hafta pay alot of money. the LEP bks money and money for mardi gras,handbk ,delta fund n test tubes. so i bought those money. tinking that wow, i got so much money. shld be enuff for today and dinner out with the swim team. in e end, after paying all those money, i m left with nth. dots. dat's so stupid of me to bring nt enuff money. i hate to feel broke and hafta borrow money =( jus dun like. >.<
the lightning and thunder in e noon at ITE Simei was scary.
but i love swimming in the rain~~ =))
can it jus rain with no lightning and thunder?
i LOVE the rain~~
i love the lunch with papa, wu gui and yawen today. though it's only 4 of us, we rapped so much lo. the joke that yawen made as we were running across the road,the zha dan (fried egg) which sounds like zha dan (bomb), the way i held the zha dan which i duno why it's funny and many more. hahaz. i jus love e lunch. heex.
oh and oso, 4 of us walked arnd the sch to find out where's the OBS briefing. and it was so funny lahz. here how's the story goes:
we went to LT1
yawen said(in a v funny way):hmmm, got air con. but v dark. tink got ppl lehx.
den she dun dare to open the door.
so wu gui opened
it was dark cos NO ONE is inside!!!! -_-|||
i luff like mad lahz.
den LT2. still ok. it's dark.
so we go audi.
audi.
papa, wu gui and yawen says: mayb here lo. try again.
went up to open the door.
the door is locked. -_-|
den go LT3.
none of us dare to open the door.
waited
waited.
a teacher came.
wu gui asked: is the OBS briefing here?
the teacher gave a v duhz face: no. (i tink she wanna say :it's lecture now)
den go LT4.
yawen popped her head in.
muhahaha.
no talk at all.
everyone taking test.
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den after dat, wanna go back to LEP room.
i asked a v stupid qn: could the talk be in GEOGRAPHY ROOM? i duno wad's so funny. but papa says is v funny. *shrugs*
i love this afternoon man. hahaz. so funny. muahahaha. i practically laugh from the start of lunch till when we go back to LEP room lo.
sighs.
back to reality.
e words that u said r hurting. though u may not know.
pls dun misunderstand. there r sumths that u duno. there is a reason why i did that.
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oops. it's 12.16 am now. hmm. but still wana wish ruo bing aka bing bing aka my "papa" HAPPY 17TH BDAY!!!
heex. hope u like the small bday party we had for u. sry lehx. cos ur bday is on a weekday plus u got tang's lesson, so cant really hold a v v bigg bday party for u. but will compensate u de. hahaz. and i got alot of ur fotos here. =P and for the first time, papa agreed to take fotos with us wheneva we call him to =)) heex. mus love the prezzie we give u kaex? oops. and i jus realised that i haven give the bday letter i have written for u. -_______-|||
oh ya, turtle princess, we wanna celebrate turtle's bday with u arnd!! hahaz.
hmmm. i find that i cant control my temper sumtimes. today i flared up in front of he ma. cos hurhem. he suan me for like duno hw many times liaoz. so i practically cant stand it for that moment of time and flared up. but at least u r gd enuff to apologise. =)) i tink i sort of said sum words that i shldnt say? sorry he ma. but hurhem. can u dun suan me 1000 times each day? and i m not only worth for suaning only. =P but true enuff, u r worth for beating only. hahaz. O_o
i tink i can die for mondays. i have grp PE and after grp PE, is land training. gosh. that's so NICE huhx. and grp PE run and run. but i m happy that my speed is maintained all e way and i improved for my incline pull ups. thanks to those trainings for swimming! but still, i dun wan land training after grp PE. it's really tiring. i hate those front,back,left,right holds. both of my arms hurt from all those holds. but it's nice to try to do 35 toe touches and 30 push=ups within 30 sec and accomplish it~~~
Mr loh put me down for 800m free style OOOO_oooo and 200m IM (butterfly,back,breast,free) for sch nationals. i mus aim to swim 16 laps of free within 10 mins and 200m IM within 2 mins. 0000000________________oooooo scary nehx. >>>>.<<<< but yupps. i mus do it! =) and i will!
sighs. but on another note, tmr got training. eehhxxx.. i m getting pretty scared of training. cos it gets tougher each time. >.<
i hope tmr's surprise for the class wld be a success!!!! and he ma better rem to prepare his speech. hahaz. *prays* i really hope that everyth will turn out alright and it will end on a positive note! eehhxxx, but why mus the CIVICS period be taken away. it has been a perfect plan if not for the fact that civics period is taken out. sobs. but still, hope everyone will like the surprise?hahaz.
hmmm.talked qute abit with yw today. really. i m tired. sighs.
i m having alot of conflicts within myself.
我 不 能 再 让 自 己 陷 进 去.
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reply to tags.
to elvin:i m not campaigning for tjc GRC !!! hahaz. there is no GRC in TJC. oh anyway,do u noe tt we'll b gg to NY for a chi talk in April. can show u e pic when we go NY!=)and ELVIN I MISS U SO MUCH! r u alright in NY?
to turtle princess: yupps. dun tink so much! hahaz. yah. elvin left us le. *wails*
to jas: WELCUM~
to carol: sry nv go dwn to find u e other day. u noe e reason. thanks for being there for me wheneva i nid sum1. will c u on 21st APril~
to he ma aka cute didi -_-| : c, he tun so efficient! not like u he ma! eerrr.can u dun always suan me? sighs. anyway, u 2 wor. got ani probs, can tok to me ya? bt i tink ur prob always the same de. hahaz. cheerios wor~
to xuan xuan: i agree wif u!! =P
to mj:u beta tag more often. since i always dun see u!! hahaz. oh yah. our date on 21st April wor~
to iHateMyTimetable: wow.wad time do u end each day?hate ur timetable so much.hahaz. miss u? *look arnd* hmmmmmm.....
finished the replies le.
din really have a good weekend.
i m bugged by so many probs.
haizz.
i miss ELVIN,HUITING,CLARENCE,HUIYI,SZE SZE. yah. i miss all of u alot. can we meet up sumtym again?i really miss 5th march 2006. the day when our frenship turns 2 months and 2 days old. e day we last met. e day when we sat by singapore river.e day when we celebrated our 2 months and 2 days old frenship. sobs* can we be together again?
*screms*
i felt really trapped.
i m bugged by so many probs.
and i cant solve them at all.
and tmr. sumth serious will take place.
i really wonder wad will happen.
i really wonder.
i din expect ths to turn out this way.
haizz.i cant take all these animore.
shld i call u?i duno. i m afraid that u r busy or wad. or perhaps i duno wad shld we tok. sry. din call u ytd. perhaps ur ignorance serves me right. cos i chose to ignore u ytd. but...........
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had been too NAIVE to believe.
i tot everyth wld be put into place.
i tot everyth wld be right.
but i was wrong.
absolutely wrong.
why cant pple show the truth.
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finally i finish typing the cg24/06 contact list. wonder got mistakes or not. sighs. i hate to look at nos. but FINALLY, I FINISH IT. hahaz. so proud of myself kays.. lalala. okiex fine. nvm. i m indulging in my own world of happiness. hahaz.
sighs. training is getting tougher as nationals are getting near. my IM sucks. it really sucks. my butterfly stroke go there bcum caterpillar. why butterfly so tiring. >.< cant it be made easier. sighs. and i cant really hear wad mr loh wans us to do cos i m in lane 5 on wed. den he is so so far away. sighs.
but still i love training. cos i can get u off my mind for once.
but really hope i can kip up with the training bahz.
getting pretty stressed up by LEP. it's like everyone expect that u speak perfect chinese, noe everyth about chinese, cannot even speak sumth wrong when u are using chinese, cannot write sumth wrong using chinese juz COS U R AN LEP STUDENT! so stressful lahz. argh.
today i got pretty stressed up by the LEP compre that tang lao shi wan us to do. i duno why. cos i do ths v slow. and i really nid a v v quiet environment to do. but hurhem. got that he2 ma3 sitting bside me. so noisy. aiyo. tsk tsk. he kips on rattling non-stop.so distracting. tsk tsk. and kip on suaning me!!! grrr..
den xiang ting v cute oso. hahaz. we hugged during lessons time. i mean of course w/o tang lao shi inside the clazroom. den she kip on looking at me. hahaz. so funny lahz. but she is sooOoo cute. her actions are so cute. hahaz. i love the hugs from her. =)
but was pretty touched when darren and yawen sort of waited for me. cos darren waiting for calli. den yawen waiting to go hm with me. so it's sort of i guess. hahaz. xiang ting they all stayed in the claz rm too. hahaz. den i heard sum hurhem. well, it shows that i can multi task. doing tang lao shi stuff while listening. hahaz.
m glad that cg24/06 is getting to noe each other beta now. =))
and huiting: dun worry. we wont forget u de. and i miss u loads!!! cum find me when u can okiex???? hheeexx...
oppps. it's getting pretty late. die le. tmr sure cant wake up de. beta go slp le. nitex pple!
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thanks nana for being my listening ear.hahz.shall talk to ya more in sch bahz. =)) really love to have u in cg24/06.
hmmm. actually i duno wad to blog about. i have been talking in riddles here lo. sighs.
tmr swim team training at ITE simei. like huhx. where is this place. hw cum it has a pool summore. is this e only ITE in sing having a pool? hahz. ermx, at least the ITE over at macpherson dun have a pool in my memory? so weird.
i felt detached from.... aiya. dun tink i shld say it here. but jus tot that they are jus hi-bye frens? i mean like... aiya. i really wondering whether i shld give up anot lo.i m dedicating so much of my time over there.sighs.wonder if it's worth it anot.
sum pple has been asking me if i running for SC?hmm. like. eerrr. i duno. i tot i was pretty firm on my decision. but sumhw, not now. hmm. but SC sounds complicated to me. >.< but the campaigns are cuming! sounds so politics. hahz.
我们之间似乎一点话题都没有.你曾经说过你会等,不管多久.但现在你似乎不记得这承诺了.是你太忙吗?我不知.嗨.你寄给我的简讯总是那么地草率.我们真的有如最熟悉的陌生人...我不喜欢这样,你明白吗?
也许我也有错吧.以前总是说些假话伤害你.对不起.我们有没有挽回的余地呢?其实,对于你一直想要知道的问题,答案是那个人是"你"....
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i hate my life for now.
it hurts when no one understands
it seems that no one care at all
like wth are u existing in this world for
when ur existence only mean that u r taking up space and the air pple breathe
i duno wad m i dd
i m contradicting myself
my feelings.
i m betraying myself
my feelings
i felt being made used by you.
but there is no way i can get near u
except when i chose to be made used by u.
wth.
tmr is competition. and yet i cant conc at all.
i m really hurt this time.
by frens and u.
4 e first time.
i m losing balance btw both at a time
can u put urself in my shoes.
hw awful the feeling is.
i cant wake myself up from the dream that i have always chose to be in.
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jus sum random sentences.
i m back to the past me. which is nt good at all. argh. tt kind of feeling jus sucks lahz.
LEP scholarship interview. i m really scared that i cant do well in this interview. well, i hate interviews. scary man. esp when it's by MOE pple.
swimming competition this sun. argh. i dun have ani hopes of being the best free style swimmer. but at least not the last. argh. stressed man.
i cant stand this stupid sore throat, cough and flu that has been irritating me for a week.
i cant stand the drowsy medicine prescribed by the doc. cant they jus give me a medicine that dun make u feel drowsy. humph!
i m so easily irritated these few days.
i m still here, tinking of u day and night.
u r still that faraway.
i m afraid. really scared.
sighs. wadeva. no one understands.
humph! even mj's blog bully me. >.<
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hmm, i guess i m dozing off any moment. hahz. jus took the stupid irritating drowsy medicine. and i m losing my voice again. shall try to preserve it. or rather, the cough jus go away pls. or else, hw m i gg to do well for my swimming meet?! sighs.
now i shall reply to tags first.
to nsh: yupps. i believe alot of pple like huang chen. hahz. u pple did a great job. heyz, maybe can be an actor on stage next year? =)
to sze sze: sobs. why do u hafta leave us?!?! sighs. but nvm. u got huiting there. but mus rem cg24 okiex? sighs. dun leave! >.< haizz.
to peiwen: i miss calling u mummy lehx! hahz. miss the moments when i wld call u MUMMY MUMMY! but still u r my pw mummy! hahz. thanks for the "cheerios" msg. hope that u are getting well in NJ ya? try to open up more for the time being in order to noe more frens, and finally noe hu suits u more ya? =)
to turtle princess: i called u princess le lehx. so of course u r pretty lo! hahz. jas and xuan xuan! she is really a princess!!!!! oh yah, really, do u noe hu's huiting hu's mInmIn? hahz. yahz! i agree with huiting. can u and turtle go and take a neoprint or sumth? hahz. dat pic in wu gui's wallet too long ago le. or izzit the river that both of u lived in dun have camera?!?! 0_o cant be right? nvm. den he ma jia zu shall lend u all a camera. i tink the river tt he ma living in has bahz? *searching in progress* hahz. =P
to huiting: hurhem. though i m he tun, u r he yu, we r still humans!! hahz. not "which is me which is huimin". is "WHO is me WHO is humin!" hahaz.
okiex. back to TJC swim team. i love TJC swim team! mus thank all the year 2s and year3s for the effort put in for the camp. u all are really excellent seniors!
hmmm, and we not training in SSC le. cos of sum probs. i duno if it's gd or not to not train there. cos the coach at SSC din really give us much attention. she din really correct our strokes. or shld i say she NEVER bothered about us? but training at SIMEI. still hafta travel there. >.<
we had games at ECP. we DUNK MR LOH into the sea!!! he was quite on though. we TAUPOK him b4 dunking him in. cos he was struggling. so in order to not let him escaped, the guys taupok him and dragged him into the sea. to tink he still can enjoy staying in the sea, nt wanting to cum up. -_-|
night activities were tiring. or rather i strained my voice again cos i kept screaming. -_-| pple hu noe me well noe that i m really sensitive dun tickle me or touch my shoulders. i really feel ticklish and will scream. so there was this blindfolding game which we are blindfolded, lined up in a row and have to trust the leader whom we choose to walk the route assigned.
the seniors went to ka jiao us while we are walking. T_T and me, being so sensitive, is of course sensitive to the tickles that they did. and they even went to pluck a stalk of leaves to tickle us. and got one person even pull our pants! -___-||||. and i held the wrong person for a period of time. dots. but too bad i m blindfolded, i duno who ka jiao wad. but i guessed LISA tickled me the most. -________-
den it was gals sharing session among ourselves. ^.^
slept in the dance studio at arnd 2am?
i guessed this morning is the most memorable morning i eva had, sumth which i will nv forget.
Mr loh was angry about us not clearing up the dance studio after using it. so we went to the dance studio and got punished.
the yr 3s, year 2s and exco did more push-ups den us. duno why,when mr loh punished them only, my tears jus cum sumhw. the year2s and exco have did alot for us during this camp i wld say. and they got the most punishment too. sighs. they were enduring the push-ups and yet trying to cheer each other on. i was really touched by this spirit.
after the year2s and exco finished their push-ups, they still hafta join the year1s,doing 120 push-ups with us. most of them are already tired and their faces are red. but yet, they tried to cheer everyone on and told everyone to hang in there.
really touched by them.
thank you seniors. yahz. we are a team and everyone has a part to play. i will rem this forever.
den it was training at bedok swimming complex. sighs. my plunging sucks lahz. i jus hope that this sunday i can plunge well. most imptly, my goggles better dun cum out and i cant swallow water. or else there goes my 50m free. n i m only taking part in this one event. but i guess it's gone case too. since my 50m free takes 51 sec?!!! when the nationals first swam it in 27 sec?! 0_0 gosh. that's really fast. i jus cant sprint lahz. 27 sec. that's half of my timing!!!! >>>..<<<<
we den played pool for 3 hrs? hahz. me and rachel makes a good pair. cos eugene and jiehan was trying to challenge us. tinking that gals cant win. but in the end, we won them!!!! hahz. gals' power! but thanks to he ma for teaching me. he is a great teacher for pool.
pool was fun. hahz.my skills are improving. but i shall nt get addicted to it. yupps.
i m glad that i have swimming to distract me from u. at least, this 1 day plus camp makes me feel better. though i noe that i cant escape from the tots of u once the camp is over.. and yah. it's true. sighs. hw i hope u nv appeared b4. wldnt life be easier. sighs.
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sighs. today's training was disappointing. my standard is nt there at all. i duno why. i m utterly disppointed in myself. wad happened?! why my timing is so bad. argh.
i duno. my ankle injury hasnt fully recovered apparently. i cant really kick my butterfly and free style well. my right leg is stiff. veri stiff. cos it's painful if i kicked the right way. but i m nt gg to attribute my failure to that pathetic excuse of my ankle injury. why has my timing bcum so bad!! sighs. tmr training at SSC again. i m really scared. scared and scared.i m scared to face the failure again. esp when the carnival/ competition is this sunday. sobs.
and my stupid cough refused to go away. for goodness sake. can i jus recover. argh. why mus e cough mixture be a drowsy medicine. i hate drowsiness. if nt for the drowsiness, i wld have taken it 3 times a day. but, i have activities in the morning and afternoon. i cant take it 3 times. i cant afford that. argh. but still, i nid to recover asap. i cant cough and breathe and swim at the same time.
it's surprising hw i m taking the words that u said. i can actually even encourage u to go for it. i duno wad went wrong. but i noe that u will nv noe and can nv noe about these feelings of mine. i cant stop myself from tinking of u. wad m i supposed to do. m i supposed to jus listen and listen and pretend that i agree to wad u said. in fact, i dun agree at all. but so wad? i m as impt to u as that person out there. that person is ur everyth. yahz. ur everyth.
swimming camp. trix jus called me and say that mayb she will join us. i really hope she join us. i miss her loads. training w/o trix is boring. hahz.
i have lost that kind of nv say die attitude. usually, no matter hw tough the training may be, i choose to go for it and dun give up. but apparently, now, i m giving it up so easily.
can my life be not so gloomy animore? can i stop shedding tears? oh well, but if i can, my blog wldnnt have such a link. tears-dat-neva-cease. sighs.wadeva.
on the verge of breakdwn. i guessed i jus hafta cry it out. haizz..
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sighs. i m feeling pretty detached. i jus hope ths get beta. i duno. we lost the chemistry we used to have. does this mark the end? sighs.
4th Kebun Baru Swimming Carnival 2006
19th March 0800hrs
Yio Chu Kang Swimming Complex
i duno if this is counted as a competition? but i jus wanna do my best and go beyond my limits. but apparently, my body isnt in the best condition nowadyas.cough, flu, sore throat. hope that i will recover soon. i really nid to be in the best condition. i wanna challenge my timing. i wanna swim well!
it has been so long since i trained. 2 weeks. tmr training at SSC. i wonder if the training is tough. sighs. i hope my cough can stop duiring training. or else, i surely cant go fast for my free style. i hoped my standard for free style is there. i miss trixie! my best pal in swimming. sighs. but she leaves me le. sobs. haiz. i miss her so much!
i guessed i will put all those emotional stuff aside for the time being. for now, it's swimming, studies, family and friends. all that i cant do w/o with.
i dun wana feel detached.
i wanna swim
i wana train.
i wana challenge myself
i wanna go beyond wad i tink i can achieve!
hope i can do it!
wish me good luck pple!
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i wan my voice!! T_T sighs.i can talk much now cos of my voice. sobs. and my throat hurts so much now. humph! sttooooppppiiidddd. i wanna talk! T_T
anyway, went to watch huang chen ytd. met up with cdc peeps. xin ee is still as hua chi as b4. hahz. and kel is still so toot! hahz. had a fun time taking fotos with them in bk. sum ppl are practically looking at us with that kind of -_-| face. hahz.
den went to victoria theatre there. took pics with sir stamford raffles. hahz. and one very very funny thing happened!!!!!!!!!!! THE WORLD IS SOoOOO "BBBIIIGGGG" hahz.
we saw qiqi aka wu gui with his princess wu gui. hahaz. so funny lahz. they were like sitting at one corner, backfacing us. den huiting suddenly asked me to turn arnd to look. i was so shocked to see them dat i screamed. but i duno he got notice us a not. cos me and huiting immediately turned away from them and pretended that we see nth. hahz. until for a moment, we turned back and waited for wu gui to turn back to see us. hahz. so funny lahz the atm. so dots. fancy meeting them outside victoria theatre and they watching huang chen too. funny funny funng. hahz.
so huiting and i finally saw his princess. that day we were still asking wu gui to bring his princess to let us have a look. now no need le. i guessed this is call "fate". hahz. no wonder ytd i keep having a feeling that i will see cg24 pple sumwhere. and really i saw wu gui! plus his princess. hahz. din talk much to them cos too shocked to see them le. hahz. WU GUI, YAO GENG NI DE GONG ZU TIAN CHANG DI JIU WOR~
huiting, i guess we shared the same sentiments regarding... hahz.
anyway, so we went in the theatre after that. i wld say the standard of huang chen is still there. i love the "jiu" show. it's really nice. the 3rd show is chim. hahz. sighs. i guess my dream of being one of the actor for huang chen will nv be fulfilled. i shall always be their audience den. =)
oh and i wanna say: stooopppiiiddd huiting. said "bye" to kel, yy and xin ee. nv say "bye" to me! stooopppiiiddd he yu!
hmmm. back to reality. i still cant escape from those thoughts of u. u have nv got off my mind b4. i cant do without u. sighs.
and huiyi jie! where r u??? i guessed u have v impt th on ytd so u cldnt make it for huang chen. but still, i hope that i can see u soon hao bu hao? >.<
march hols are here. gotta spend this march hols fruitfully. but it means training too. >.<
tues training at SSC. that's scary. >.<
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i guessed sum ppl are feeling blue regarding the change in class. i guess it takes time for u all to cheer up bahz. i admit that it's really hurting to leave. but still, we are here for u all. dun worry too much about not being able to adapt to the cg u r in. we are here. we are a fone call away. we LOVE you!
regarding xuan xuan qn, the he ma jia zu consists of :
didi aka dihui aka he ma.
huimin aka minmin aka he tun.
huiting aka he yu.
yawen aka he hua.
huiyi aka he ye.
qi en aka qiqi aka wu gui.
ruo bing aka bin bin aka xiao qing lui with feng lin. =P
anyway, that's bout he ma jia zu.
still we ARE CG24/06. =) and will always be.
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hmmm,i m at home now. at 10.18 am. hahz. din go for O2. since i cant walk and i cant cheer. totally no voice. when i talked to pple, i m acting out wad i wana say. cant tok at all. this is so irrtating! and stepsils do not work on me animore! sobs.hope OG12 is having fun now. they playing the exco trackdown. sighs. which i cant possibly participate in. cos it certainly involve alot of running. hmmm. hope i can walk fast tmr le. cos tmr got og bonding time! yeah!
jus went to students' portal to check whether our course registration is out. checked that cg24/06 has bcum a bigg claz of 24 ppl? i duno if it's true or not. cos xuan and verena has nt been allocated a cg yet which is quite weird. sighs. i hope cg24/06 will not be too big a claz bahz. cos later will have cliques and cliques which will break the unity of the claz. >.<
din go for dragon boating since i cant cum into contact with water. sobs. they have so much fun dragon boating. rocking the boat, cheering and jumping into the water. while we stayed at the shore waiting for them. >.< but had a nice chat with ms fong! i love her so much! hope that she will remain as my civics tutor and chem tutor. have so much to chat with her.
den yw, huiting and i played a very lame game. the acting out to let u guess wad that person is acting game. hahz. the way yw act is very funny.
.i cnat get my mind off u.
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sighs. i sprained my leg. and it hurts so much. sighs. really LAME now. still tinking if i shld go tmr's orientation or nt.i wanna go! but ermz, if i can walk. and today i walk like a tortoise like that. my speed is super SLOW. is really veri slow. hahz. den huiting was my walking stick. love u huiting! thanks for waiting for me and be my walking stick ya?
hmmm, today the pple got more enthu. nth more to say about orientation. cos of my leg, i practically played nth. except limping from place to place.
sub combi. my claz is left with arnd 10 pple? but all of us wan to be together. i really really hope tat cg24/06 will stay together. we cant be separated at all. and huiting changing to physics. sighs. i will miss u de huiting!
he ma jia zu? will it bcum a history soon? i duno. i really hope it wont. i guessed on thurs, if i eva noe that cg24/06 is nt together, i guess i will cry and jus leave orientation. cos i wld say, w/o 24/06, i guess my life will nt be that nice afterall.
i love he ma jia zu- i love he ma, i love he hua, i love he ye, i love the xiao qing lui, i love wu gui. i love everyth in the river that he ma jia zu is in.
last sunday, huiting said sumth that touched me alot. was at the sing river there. tot of alot of ths. and my tears jus cum sumhw. den huiting was like saying, " no use putting up a false front. u shld noe that when u are down, u got cg24/06 and me with you" yahz. that totally touched me and my heart totally melted.
i guess i wont blog about sunday outing. jus wanna kip that kind of special feeling in my heart and everyone in cg24/06, rem this wonderful outing we have ya?
i miss last week. cos it was a week spent with cg24/06. sighs. i guess a day w/o cg24/06 wld kill me. i really miss all of u! and pple, cum tmr kaex? dun pangseh me le. hahz. but mayb is me pangseh u all bahz.wad robin said might be true. he was like saying why i sprained my leg. den he said, " u see, u cant do w/o us. jus one day w/p us u sprained ur leg." hahz. yahz. i guess i can nv do w/o cg24/06.
i miss u. the reason why i stayed despite the pain is cos i wana c u. but i guess u nv noe. but the worse th u can eva repay me with is trying to avoid. pls dun do this. it hurts.
shld i go orientation tmr?sighs. feel so much like nt gg. but i wanna be with cg24/06 pple. sighs. but i cant walk.hmmm.
cg24/06, we will always be.
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i got serious mood swings probs. sighs. i can bcum v high for one moment and low the veri next sec.
i m missing you every second. even when u r so near me. i still miss u. cos i noe, at ani time, i wont c u again.
u nv noe wad i mean. cos u nv treat my words seriously at all. i din do that too. cos i noe, ur words will nv be real. but my words cum frm the bottom of my heart. but u nv noe. and i guess u nv will.
i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i cant bring my mind off u. wad m i supposed to do.
i need to be alone. i need to sort out my tots. but the momment i m alone, i cant stop my tears from overflowing. and my tots wld be all jumbled up.
why mus u appear.
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hmm. today had ogl briefing. and i m injured. >.< hahz. cos well, the stage for our mass dance test was small. den all the deltans kip moving back. and i din realise that there is a hole behind lo. and fell. -_-| dots lahz. so paiseh. and it hurts so much when u walk! it's gonna be a bigg blue-black lahz. sobs.
had been slacking my day off today. well, i guessed i hafta hao hao de bao wo the next 2 wks. wana catch up my academic work. yupps. the next 2 wks will be fun and work! sighs.
cg outing tmr. i wldnt wanna comment alot on it. but yupps. happy with the attendance. but organising this cg outing nearly gave me a breakdwn. cos of sum stuff. wldnt wanna say bahz. i shall forget it bahz. =) but jus hope that u guys will have a fun time tmr k!yupps. i dun wan my hp to have a msg saying "i m not gg le" k. looking forward to tmr. and the surprise for u all! hehehex.... lalala.
love cg24/06, we will always be. *you will find the meaning of this quote tmr* =P hahz.
hope tt tmr outing will be a successful one. PPLE, dun pangseh kaex. =)
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call out to cg24/06 pple: outing this sunday. meet at 10.15am at cityhall mrt control.the programme wld be: kbox (11 to 2), in the noon: bowling,pool. chit chat with clara. nitex: either settle for sumth simple as dinner or steamboat. it isnt the food tt we r interested in ritex? but the fact that we can get together and crap! those hu cant make it, pls inform me by my hp by tmr evening okiex?DUN PANGSEH ME OKIEX? this will be the only outing with cg24/06-PAE intake for now. everyone try to make it kaex?
oh and to clara: happy birthday! we love u! we are always ur hao jie mei! no matter wad. time wont change this. we love u and will always love u. when u are dwn, we, jie meis are jus a phone call away.good luck for ur appeal kaex?? he ma jia zu behind u all the way! we miss u! hope to cya soon this sunday outing!
hmmm. today after knowing our posting results, cg24 went out to have lunch! sadly i din go lahz. sighs. got swimming training. though i din swim. hahzz. training is tough today. and mr loh says it will always be so tough nw. we will swim 2.5km and up from nw on >.< hope i can take it bahz. =))
sighs. quite sad that i din get to have lunch with the cg24 pple. clara! i missed u so much when i joined he ma and binbin for movie lo.u all leave for PDP at that time le. hahz.i kept saying i miss u so much! kekex. anyway, hope u like the cute cute bday presents we got for u kaex? and ur beloved MEIJI CHOCOLATES. hahz. HAPPY BDAY once again!
so after swimming, joined he ma, bin bin and he hua for movie. he hua din wan to go. cos she meeting her senior. and we watching final destination. hahz. she dun like horror.
he ma and binbin are so brave lahz. dots. they watched everyth of final destination. for sum scenes, i m practically covering my face. too scared to see those er xin stuff. hahz. binbin can even slp lo.-_-| and that stupid he ma kip saying i sadistic. cos when sumone died, i kip luffing. i luff not bcos i m happy that the person is dead! jus felt that the scenes are freaking me out. the only th i can console myself with is to luff. my natural reaction! hahz.
today alot of pple pangseh he ma and binbin. hahz. i pangseh them for lunch. while clara, daren, szesze left cos of PDP. den ht not feeling well.hahaz. poor guys. but dun pangseh me for sunday kaex.=)
today is the last day cg24/06 went to rm 420 as a claz. nevertheless, our frenship stays. it will always be. no matter where u are. we are a phone call away. =) love u all loads.=)
tmr got OGL meeting. woah. den after that got SBM stuff. hmmm. i m looking forward to tmr and sunday so much! hahz.
sighs. i haven settle the quarrel btw us. i duno when r u free to pick up my call. and i m not angry. jus tot that we shld let ourselves cool dwn for a period of time.
i m getting more and more crazy over u. but sadly, i cant tell u much. u r acutally answering ur own qn. jus that u din noe. and i guess, u will nv noe.
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sighs. checked the posting results via tjc student portal. clara may nt be able to stay. sighs. our claz is left with 10 pple. excluding those who are leaving and changing sub combi. i love CG24/06. everyone loves CG24/06.
clara may be irritating at times. but he bought laughter to us. he bought joy to us. he makes life in jc more interesting. no one can deny tt he really makes our claz a lively one. though we may hate him for his irritating nature, but deep inside our hearts, everyone in royalties and he ma jia zu wans him to stay. all of us love him.( i tink clara will say: dun tink too much horx. i wont like u one horx) hahz. he is always like this. he may sound like a child. but we are happy to parent him wheneva possible. for once, i will call him CLARENCE. all the best for ur appeal.royalties and he ma jia zu behind u all e way. and tmr is his bday. hw great is this man. sighs. i guess the best bday present for him, is to stay in tj with us bahz.
as for the others hu r staying in tj, do stay in cg24/06 if u can. everyone of u plays an impt role in this claz. w/o u, cg24/06 will nt be as bonded as it is nw. stay with us. i guess many are staying, but due to the small nature of our claz, when one person leaves, our claz size will sumhw reduce by so much. sighs.
on another note, i manage to learn 3 mass dances today. i m so tired nw. hahz. but the dances are fun! i love the dances. yupps. for those who are cuming to tj, do leave a tag kaex? den i can expect u. hahz. yeah! 2nd orientation rocks!
i enjoyed every moment of looking at u, of tinking of u, of talking to u. it's nice to hear hw much u care about me. it's nice to be able to play and talk to ya. yupps. =)) crazy over u.>.<
oh, n darren today told me about hw his YF got jealous cos that day, i was steping his leg cos he stepped mine. den his YF saw everyth and sort of angry with him. wa lao. i felt damn pissed off when i heard this lahz. like halo. hu wans ur DARREN. pls man! there r so many guys hu are much beta off than him. for goodness sake. this DARREN that u wan. U CAN JUS KEEP IT TO URSELF FOR ALL U WAN.and moreover, u all r not in a relationship YET. so u mean i cant even be frens with him izzit. jealous woman.
it hurts to hear that ur fren cares more about the person whom he like jus cos of the angel mortal game than u, when u have been his fren for 3 months, not 2 wks ONLY. it jus hurts lahz. was talking to ms fong about it. sighs.
=i m crazy over u=
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heard that JAE results leaked out today. hahz. den ht told me that her fren 5pts after bonus cant get into nj? and 9pts aft bonus cant get into tj? dots. so the cut off is pretty low nehx. so we were tinking if clara can stay? hmmm. i m neutral towards him staying. so today i was actually asking bin bin, qiqi and daren if they wan clara to stay. hahz.
sighs. last wk with cg24/06. i tink i will write a blog entry bout cg24 when i've the time soon. really love the pple loads. though many are still staying on, i wonder if cg24 wld stay like this after jae? cos aft jae, we may be spilt up due to our claz size, or maybe others pple will join in n mayb we will nt be that united animore cos there will be alot of cliques probs? sighs.
din go for swimming training today cos hurhem. gals stuff. so cant swim. i realised is so embarrassing to tell a guy why u cant go swim. when ruo fan was asking me if i gg swim today, i was like," ehx. not gg. cos ehx...........hurhem.." den i kip giving that kind of embarrassed look. luckily he understands me. hahz. or else i really duno wad to say.hahz.
learn sum mass dance steps today. sighs. me, ht and yw are so super lag bhind for the dances. sighs. i sort of give up learning le. cos no one wana teach us. only got he2 ma3 to teach us. but he quite busy with his stuff too. so cant really dedicate all his time to teach us. sighs. but i learnt all the difficult steps le! thanks to harry for teaching me hw to dance running man. =))
talking about he2 ma3. now our claz got another "he2 jia1 zu2" hahz.
dihui aka didi is the he2 ma3
huimin (me) aka minmin is the he2 tun2 >.<
yawen aka cold queen is the he2 hua1
huiyi aka dream queen is the he2 ye4
qi en aka qiqi is the wu1 gui1
ruo bing aka bin bin and feng lin is the xiao1 qing2 lui3. (they nearly wana kill me when i said this =P)
heyz pple. expand this "he2 jia1 zu2"!!! cg 24 pple jia ru wo men de he jia zu! hahaz.
nw i really cant call dihui. hahz. always call him he2 ma3 now.but it's quite odd when everyone looks at u when u start calling he ma!!!
i duno if i shld cont taking clit anot. maybe sum pple may be surprised when they hear this. cos i have always been the one hu kips saying i m staying. but i cant seem to cope with it. i cant memorise all those stuff like others so easily. n there is a test on fri. sighs. i duno. mayb everyth will be clearer after the test. but one th for sure. I WONT BEAR TO LEAVE CG24. but it wld sounds dumb taking clit jus cos of the claz? cos it concerns my future. but i wan the cert too. but....sighs.
my march hols are pretty packed with swimming stuff. swimming camp, swimming carnival competition, swimming competition in Thailand. sighs. the Thailand trip is abit long i tot. haiz. but pple, mus send me off kaex!?!!! hahaz
i wan 2nd orientation to cum quickly!!
+ no words can express hw attached i m to cg 24/06 and i guess that applies for almost everyone ritex? and hw strong the bond is btw all of us. we are frens that can gong4 huan4 nan4.+
ROYALTIES, HE MA JIA ZU, CG24/06 WILL ALWAYS REMAIN AS ONE.
=it's painful to noe that in ur heart, u have sumone else= shld i let this chance slip past me?
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heard that JAE results leaked out today. hahz. den ht told me that her fren 5pts after bonus cant get into nj? and 9pts aft bonus cant get into tj? dots. so the cut off is pretty low nehx. so we were tinking if clara can stay? hmmm. i m neutral towards him staying. so today i was actually asking bin bin, qiqi and daren if they wan clara to stay. hahz.
sighs. last wk with cg24/06. i tink i will write a blog entry bout cg24 when i've the time soon. really love the pple loads. though many are still staying on, i wonder if cg24 wld stay like this after jae? cos aft jae, we may be spilt up due to our claz size, or maybe others pple will join in n mayb we will nt be that united animore cos there will be alot of cliques probs? sighs.
din go for swimming training today cos hurhem. gals stuff. so cant swim. i realised is so embarrassing to tell a guy why u cant go swim. when ruo fan was asking me if i gg swim today, i was like," ehx. not gg. cos ehx...........hurhem.." den i kip giving that kind of embarrassed look. luckily he understands me. hahz. or else i really duno wad to say.hahz.
learn sum mass dance steps today. sighs. me, ht and yw are so super lag bhind for the dances. sighs. i sort of give up learning le. cos no one wana teach us. only got he2 ma3 to teach us. but he quite busy with his stuff too. so cant really dedicate all his time to teach us. sighs. but i learnt all the difficult steps le! thanks to harry for teaching me hw to dance running man. =))
talking about he2 ma3. now our claz got another "he2 jia1 zu2" hahz.
dihui aka didi is the he2 ma3
huimin (me) aka minmin is the he2 tun2 >.<
yawen aka cold queen is the he2 hua1
huiyi aka dream queen is the he2 ye4
qi en aka qiqi is the wu1 gui1
ruo bing aka bin bin and feng lin is the xiao1 qing2 lui3. (they nearly wana kill me when i said this =P)
heyz pple. expand this "he2 jia1 zu2"!!! cg 24 pple jia ru wo men de he jia zu! hahaz.
nw i really cant call dihui. hahz. always call him he2 ma3 now.but it's quite odd when everyone looks at u when u start calling he ma!!!
i duno if i shld cont taking clit anot. maybe sum pple may be surprised when they hear this. cos i have always been the one hu kips saying i m staying. but i cant seem to cope with it. i cant memorise all those stuff like others so easily. n there is a test on fri. sighs. i duno. mayb everyth will be clearer after the test. but one th for sure. I WONT BEAR TO LEAVE CG24. but it wld sounds dumb taking clit jus cos of the claz? cos it concerns my future. but i wan the cert too. but....sighs.
my march hols are pretty packed with swimming stuff. swimming camp, swimming carnival competition, swimming competition in Thailand. sighs. the Thailand trip is abit long i tot. haiz. but pple, mus send me off kaex!?!!! hahaz
i wan 2nd orientation to cum quickly!!
+ no words can express hw attached i m to cg 24/06 and i guess that applies for almost everyone ritex? and hw strong the bond is btw all of us. we are frens that can gong4 huan4 nan4.+
ROYALTIES, HE MA JIA ZU, EACH AND EVERYONE OF CG24/06 WILL ALWAYS REMAIN AS ONE.
=it's painful to noe that in ur heart, u have sumone else= shld i let this chance slip past me?
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