had 2 swimming sessions today.
hmm, the afternoon one was tiring. swam free style, 3 sets, 200m. woah. n there is like 20 sec rest in btw only. i found out that for the 2nd and 3rd lap for 1st set was the hardest for me. felt rather breathless. but as i got used to the laps. surprisingly, my breathing rate bcums rather norm which means i can go faster. =) i cant afford to rest. weird me. when pple wld actually wanna rest so much. but after i rest, if go for free style. i felt so much like dying. cos my breathing rate bcums abnormal again. but argh. i still cant make it the the timing of 2mins for 100m. mus aim for that.
but it was fun training with the year2s. more like swimming. hahaz. but today's training makes me really afraid of wad will be happening to me if i go to SSC. i m really afraid that i cant meet the expectations there. esp my frog style. i jus cant go fast for this style. sighs.
n i jus realised that harry stays so near me.that's good. got sumone to walk home with me after swimming. hahaz.
i guess swimmers have high expectations of themselves. everyone wans to be the fastest.
but i m seriously scared of those muscles that will develop as i train. it looks. argh. esp when i swim free style often.
still got road run tmr. still contemplating whether to run or not. hmm. i m like half dead nw. if run tmr, i will be DEAD. hahz.
i realised that swimming in e pool is a paradise to me. i wont tink of those sad moments. i wont shed tears. i wont feel hurt. but well, after getting out of the pool, after leaving the teammates, reality sets in. sighs.
i realised that it's not a matter of whether i have hopes about **, but jus that if that trigger is on. everyth crumbles.i jus hope that the th that i have been worrying about wont bcums reality. or else. sighs.
this is the hurdle i have to overcome myself. that person out there cannot noe it. hafta tide tru this period no matter wad.
the stupid flu and cough is cuming again. i hate this man.
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