All That I've Got

Monday, January 30, 2006
-11:30:00 PM-

i cant hold it back anymore
the tears i used to swallow back
it's threatening to spill over,
and i have no more smiles to cover it animore.

the consolation which i always hold.
it doesnt stand animore.
it's true that i m alone.
there is nth left to behold.

keeping myself occupied aint gg to help much
the reality slpas me awake always.
it's jus a matter of avoiding or facing.
yet, i m still a coward,
as i chose to avoid.

i wanna drink myself to slp
i wan to be in that wonderland of mine.
but the feeling of this can nv be fulfilled,
cos of the false front i chose to put up.

dun look at me with that kind of exp.
it looks as if i have done you wrong.
when i did not.
when all i wanted is to care more,
to know more,
to learn more,
about YOU.
yet, one word of "IGNORE"
denies wadeva i had done.
is it fair afterall.

putting a false front is painful
when u cant even face up to ur emotions.
but wad can i do.
but to cont doing so.
cos....
nv can i trust animore
my trust has been betrayed once more.
it's too much to take it into my stride.

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