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mInmIn
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20th august 1989
Temasek Junior College
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sighs.. FINALLY my internet is working. but the pple i wana tok too are missing le. jus now that STUPID INTERNET jus refused to work when i needa meet pple online. sighs..haizz..
tmr evening th with jie is off le. sighs. haizz. well, jus sent an online sms to her. hope can still c her bahz. it has been one month since we met. perhaps one month may seems short to sum pple? hah.. but to me it's sOOo long.. wana c her so much.. sighs...
haizz.. duno wad to blog le.. sighs.. haiz.. stupid internet.. so pek cek with this internet lahz.. stupid!
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went out.. till about an hr ago den came home.. which means i came home arnd 11.30pm..
wow,from morning 11am went out to meet peiwen to nitex 11.30pm reach home..hahaz..have been out for so long..nearly gg to overlap to 12 am of 30th dec liaoz.. hahaz..hmmm..if i cum hm after 12am, it wld mean that i went out on the 29th dec to EARLY morning of 30th dec. cool. hahaz. but i din. still reach home b4 the clock strucks 12am of 30th dec. hmm, gg to be year 2006 so soon. >.<
well, not that i dun like cuming home.. it's not the hse that i hate, it's not the fact that i dun wana see my parents or anyth.. in fact, i felt really guilty to leave my parents at home like that, not gg out with them.. i guess during this hols, i only came home for dinner less than 15 times, when i wld normally be at home for dinner in the past everyday..but well, due to the fact that i still cant face up to myself..due to the fact that i dun wana be at my own rm, doing nth,staring in space, tinking of the hurtful things which will cum to mind whenever i m alone, i decided to go out as long as i cld...
went with mj to get rainie's autogrpah in the evening. well, she went to queue and everyth lohxx.. while i jus stand there listen her sing.. hahaz.. cos i din buy her album mahzz..alot of pple there worxx... hahaz.. the queue was pretty long.. i wait until my legs wana break liaoz. hahaz.
i love the song "li xiang qing ren"
den ltr we went to buy sumth to eat. den sat outside 7 eleven and talk. looks weird lahz. like everyone looking at us as they walk past. but heck lahz. not my prob. hahaz. so we talked talked talked talked while trying to get onyi. but we never managed to find her. sighs. she so pro in pool de mahz. sighs. but din get her. and she haven reply me! =( anyway, den jy called. so i was like, die, haven find onyi lehx. so decided to find ivan er ge. den well,he cant make it too.*hurhem* another pro pool cant make it. hahaz. so nvm. we decided to go dwn to orchard den c hw lohx.
den on the train, told mj sumths. well, i guessed virgo pple are really like both of them bahz. hahaz. but mj, i mus say, u really can handle virgo pple. hahaz. cos u r virgo oso izzit? kekex. anyway, at least i get to know more about hw i shld approach and everyth. hope it works.
den went to meet jy. den we went to cine 8th level. hahaz. saw the pool tables and everyth. din manage to c onyi there. sighs. and i did sumth veri paiseh. >.< gosh. i still feel so paiseh lahz. anyway, pool pros are all there, and the rates are really ex, so we went arcade de.
den well, being newbies, except mj, we sort of really felt embarrassed.cos well, there were a grp of pple looking at us as we played. den we were like.................................. okiex nvm. but we still played it! hahaz. anyway, i realise sumth, w/o confidence, i can nv hit the ball into the hole. quite surprised that i did manage to hit the ball into the holes lehxx... lalalalalala...but mj sort of won. cos she hit the black ball into the hole, with my help of course! i provide her with a v good angle nehx.. hahaz.. jus jk.. hahaz..=P
so jus nw was talking on the fone with the SBMY pple. Ivan (not my er ge) keeps making me luff lahz. dots. i luff till cramp lohxx.. hahaz.. oh well, they din noe that i can luff till like that de. that's hw i always luff anyway. den he keeps saying wana call police and ambulance. dotss...den alot of his funny jokes keep making me luff.. cant stand him.. he is jus such a joker. hahaz. but i can confirm one thing! my laughter spreads! hahaz. i manage to make amanda luff with me. lalala. hahaz. den cos of toking with pple on msn, sumtimes i jus keep quiet. den when i luff, it's really noisy. *noise pollution* den ivan was like, can u dun be so extreme. hahaz. too bad. i jus wana luff...lalalalala...a nice tok with them.. wow, we conference for duno hw many times le. but jus wana say sorry to amanda and sou kuin, that i cant meet u all on sat. cos i having sumth on. really wana help u all, really. i will try to meet u all oso after sch reopens? sorry that i cant be of much help this time.
i hate guys who turn their backs against their ex gfs after breaking up, treating as if the relationship never exist b4. i mean even if break up le, dun need to be so extreme one wad. can still be frens one wad. even if not frens, oso dun go and hurt the other party. no matter wad, u all have loved each other b4 mahzz.. why mus turn the love to hatred. argh. irritating. sighs.
anyway, huiyi thanks for putting greater emphasis on me for this sat. really appreciate tat. miss u and c u on sat! *hugs*
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went to the tj talk early in the morning.. hmm.. at least i m more clear now le bahzz.. and all thanks to the pple for the advices.. guess it's still interest first bahzz..but well, i noe that that sumth that has been holding me back shld be put aside for now.. at least not worth it for now..
but i realised i get to take chinese le!!! yeah!!! hahaz. oh well, it may seem foolish to take sumth related to chinese when i took hcl, but well, i guess my interests for chi is not gg to stop after secondary sch. so yupps. at least, i m not torn btw econs and elit animore. although i felt that i really wasted 2 yrs on elit bahzz.. since i m not pursuing it animore. hmmm...i guess it's not wise to struggle with sumth related with eng animore when my eng sucks.. =( econs? hmm.. too dry.. hahaz..
den went to eat sakae with mj.. gosh.. so full.. hahaz..did we manage to eat 16 plates? i duno nehx. hahaz. din go and count. but the sushi is really veri nice.so my breakfast, lunch and dinner for today settled at the sakae restaurant.. ahh... i wana go eat again! yummy! hahaz.
hmm, talked to her about sum stuff too. it has been really sum time since we talked like this. well, i do understand her stand and her reasons for not telling, i m trying to change, so that there wont be misunderstandings anymore. in the process of changing bahz. at least i hope. but well, of course i do feel abit sad lahzz.. i mean that's human nature ritex.. but still i will try to understand her intentions as the time goes...
hahaz.. den we went pet shop. love the dogs there. but the huskies is really lonely. sad sad sad. haizz.. no one play with it lohxx.. but horx, it jus dun wana look at me and mj.. humph! hahaz.. guess i wld wana adopt a dog frm SPCA in the future too! =))
den went for last lesson of guitar. haiz. sad. well, decided that i will not buy a guitar for now. only will buy it when i m able to use it in tj bahzz.. or else it wld be a waste. i hope to be taught by Tomas nehxx.... hope bahzz..
talked to him jus now.. errr.. okiex.. well..i jus hafta put my feelings aside asap bahzz...
tmr gg out. hmm, though still undecided. cos i m really falling ill soon. my throat hurts now. another throat infection like b4? hmm. well well, hope not of course. so well, i still duno whether to go out not lahzz... hahaz...
我走向前,你看不见,真的遥远, 就连叹息, 影子听见,也是无言,你和我之间,刻着一条界线 ,不曾有改变 ...
=i duno hw long more i can hold on=
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b4 i blogged, wishing all a belated merry christmas and a happy new year! hahaz.. well, the christmas wishes are abit late lahz horx. kekex. thanks for all those wishes and sms too! oh, and the christmas prezzies.. hahaz.. thanks loads...
it has been a few days since i blogged. hahaz. well, have been gg out and out. well..
sumth dreadful happened on 24th dec. glad that it's over now at least. or shld i say i expect it to happen again. well, it's jus a knot that cannot be untied. it can only be loosen and tighten every now and then. so feeling dreadful and totally dun feel like staying at home, went out at 10.30pm to meet oy. i guessed that's the latest time i have ever stepped out of the hse to go out bahz. well, i cant stand staying at home on that day. so went to suntec. saw many many couples. practically everyone that i saw were couples. hahaz. den oy told me she got stead le. i was -_-| okiex. so sudden. or at least, as wad i said, i din expect u to stead with wl bahz. well, all along, ur mum and i tot that herman shld be ur choice instead. hahaz. but it turned out otherwise.
den ltr went to annabelle's hse. wanted to sing ktv de. but the songs were rather those kind of very old de. so sang sum that we know which was really limited, den sumone called oy to go play pool liaoz. hahaz. din go out with her le. well, pretty tempted to go. but since it's already like near 3am, i guessed i shld go home bahzz.i din meant to make u worry, but the things that i heard and u said on 24th dec really hurts me.
so it wasnt a nice christmas eve.
so came christmas. i was really bored at home in the noon. den after that, my parents decided to go orchard. oso called jq along. hahz. so we went to plaza sing first, well, the whole world like buying phones like that. the starhub shop there was really crowded. so my mum oso wana buy a fone. so well, i go shop with jq first lohxx... ate the "wow, tako". YUMMY!!! hahz. den went 77th street. saw a Billabong pencil box that is really ex. but it's really nice. it's PINK in colour! hahaz. but well, din buy it in the end. so we went to see the lightings and everyth. well, i wld say i dun take interest in that bahz. so jus walked walked walked. den jy called.................................................
she was really sad by sum stuff. well, so i only hear wad happened and tried to console her. but well, is sucks at consoling pple lahz. can be gd listener only.sad.
so was on the fone for v long. den dad wasnt really veri happy. bt i cant dun care her lohxx...so well.. such a christmas..
hahz...but things got better.. kekex.. so after that, me and jq decided to watch the prince who turns into a frog.. the wang zi bian qing wa.. din catch it as it was on during o's.. so we managed to ton all nitex.. hahaz.. we watched till 7.30 am in the morning on 26th dec...but we werent tired at all.. hahaz.. but cant cont watching as mummy keep hurrying us to slp.. so well.. we switched off the tv plus com and slept.. hahaz.. pw.. now u understood why i called u to morning cal me when it's 7.30am le? but thanks for the morning call anyway..
so today, i was supposed to go buy stationery and pencil box with jq. so hafta have morning calls. woke up at round 11 sumth. so we wanted to cont watching.. but welll, hafta go out le..so went out to buy all those stationery.. i dun really like the layout of the new popular bahz.. i wld say.. i cant seem to find the things that i wan lahzz...hahz.. den ltr we went bishan..wanted to buy those pencil box that i always bought in the past.. but papa said it was not good.. den he say see others... so in the end.. i got the Billabong pencil box that i saw on Christmas!!! hahaz.. luv it soOoo much! den mum and dad was like sayin hafta used till Uni.. diaozz...
gg tj tmr..well.. i really duno which sub to choose lahzz.. i m totally fed up with myself.. haizz.. i cant make a choice.. i noe.. i cant do that sub jus cos of him.. that's sooOo stupid.. but i still cant tink out of this..if i can, i wldnt be so confused of which sub to choose.. jus cos of him.. it makes everyth totally upside dwn.. i duno wad subs to choose now lahzz.. totally irritated and frustrated.. grr.. hope tmr briefing wont call us to make the choice by tmr.. gee.. give me one to 2 more days pls.. sighs.. hmmm... and so wad if i have the passion for chinese? i noe i cant pursue it anymore. haizz.. if i hafta cont to pursue it, i will have to be in the fac of Arts in Uni in future, which i totally cant possibly go in there, cos other than chinese, i have no more interest in the modules offered there. why mus chinese be a sub in the fac of arts?!!grrrr.... haizz.. sighs.. no use complaining.. it seems that i jus hafta stick to this bahzz.. sighs...
when i received the msg bout wanting to remain things as this way, i was not hurt or anyth. jus disappointed. surprising, i dun feel the heart pain i used to feel anymore.
the last guitar lesson tmr.. hmmm...
on a happier note, tmr gg to eat sushi!! lalalalala...oh well..
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today is a super duper boring day as i chose to stay at home. regretted not going out. cos i aint productive at hm anyway. jus to be at home so that papa and mama wont get so upset over me going out for the past few days. but wad can i do at home? rot? yah. precisely. that's all i can do. i slept till like 1pm? well, there is nth i can do even if i wake up. so why nt slp more.den after that, papa came home with 2 tins of paint. i was like -_-| painting the house?! huhx. din hear them say bout it until i saw the 2 tins of paint. or probably it is cos i m always gg out, so i duno that they are painting the hse?
den wanted to go cut hair de. in the end, dropped the idea. cos i cant make a decision btw ONLY cutting hair or cut plus rebond. but if i cut it short, wad's the pt of rebonding ritex. to me, i tink it doesnt looks good to rebond when ur hair is short lahz. so bein an indecisive person, i decided to cut my hair when my mum comes home. in the end wad time did my mum came home? 9pm! which is oh so EARLY to go cut my hair. well, so in the end, my hair remains wad it is.
den after that, talked to selen for very long. i guess i m really one with no patience and pretty hot tempered. i cant stand it when that stupid game jus doesnt load. yet, selen kept helping me all the way. she shld be the one hu cant stand it cos she is actually helping me. well, in the end i gave up. haizz...
so i decided to go net to tune my guitar. guess wad, i tune till the E string snap. wad the... i was really frustrated. why things are getting on my way today. so i decided, fine! i m not gg to play anymore. i m jus gg to get a new guitar. as i totally cant stand my bro's guitar. it's of steel string which i dun like. i dun like the sound that it produces too.
so i have quite a no. of things to settle b4 the hols end:
buy a new guitar
buy pick
buy tuner
buy a new pencil box
store up my stationery.
check up internet stuff.
talking about internet. well, by hook or by crook, i m gg to solve this stupid internet prob by this year. i cant imagine having a com without internet. den hw m i gg to complete my assignments in jc? grr. getting pretty fed up. n everytime i have to beg my bro to help me fix it. n sumtimes, he wld be so irritated. den there wld be loads of probs too. sighs.
and sumth is really bothering me. i have yet to tink of my subject combi!!! grr. irrtating. i still cant make a choice btw bio and physics. advice anyone? oh and a choice btw econs and elit too. sighs...
sumhw, i shld have gone to suntec to meet huiyi, or go play pool with onyi. life is getting boring at home. yet, i dread the next yr that is coming. the stress and everyth.
i m getting really dwn this few days. i really duno why. haizz..
saw him on net for the whole noon. yet i have no courage to msg him to ask. well, a coward me. isnt it?
and SBMY meeting changed to 2nd jan. sighs. the day b4 sch starts? haizz..
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Panna pple rawks! hahaz. had a fun time today with them. and well, i kinda agree with amanda boutt sum stuff. well well.. hahaz. i guess both of us still tinks that she likes him lahzz.. =P
today went to meet them too.. haiz.. i realised i so shi bai in guitar lahzz.. sighs.. i really hope that i can play well.. but it seems that all my hopes are dashed when i see that she played so well.. sighs.. feeling sum kind of inferior lahzzz... haizz... i m really worried of not getting into the guitar club.. haizz.. i really wana get in lahzz...
i duno if i m tinking too much. but all those reassurance dun seem to help me much. haizz. i duno. why i cant noe wad happened. i really wish to ask. but i noe that that's too much. but i really felt the gap in btw. and i truly felt hurt. i dun like the feeling of this gap. really. it is really awful. but till now, it cant be helped. cos well, things hafta stay this way. perhaps this is jus the price tt i hafta pay. haizz.. but i still appreciate wad sumone did ytd.. yahzz.. i appreciate that...
it's hard to re-establish wad has been lost.
i cant try to prevent myself frm missing him. i cant.
back to the teary me.
i noe i m speaking ridiculously here. but i jus cant openly post wad i truly wana say. cos my words will jus hurt sum pple out there. this feeling is too awful to bear...
因为我遇见你像一场虚拟的游戏
我认识你也只是网路上一段讯息
你若不在我的脑海 就一片空白
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it is not e things tt u wana say that hurts me most,bt e fact tt u choose 2 hide ur true feelings frm me.....
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Camp Ehi-Passiko 2005 Sequel RAWKS!! it jus RAWKS. hahaz. i wld say this the most fun camp that i have eva attended bahz. cos the games being organised is not norm telematches BUT more interesting and creativity added inside. love it to loads. hahaz.
so first day started with waiting at lavender station for the coaches to bring us to Camp Christine. Gosh. that place is so isolated. like gg to rural place like that. realli "wu1 lu1". then so we put our bags and everything and was grouped into different grps. My grp is called "PANNA" but it's pronounced as Pania. hahaz. So we started with Ice breaker games. eerr...but i totally forgt wad did we do. hahaz. too many games played that i really forgt.
but it started with the organisers trying to show us a video. The video is done by the SBMY pple.yah. it's totally like watching a movie. they did it real well. everything is done by themselves.
so the video overall was about an Oracle of the Papaya Kingdom who is trying to defend its territory from the growing Farlala troupe. and we campers being the soldiers, have to go tru many training to be able to fight the WAR in the end. this the basic summary lahz. still got alot of things like trying to find ruins, the Farlala's daughter called Hualala born and ltr went missing and stuff. very funny. the organisers act till really funny. hahaz. but they really put in alot of effort to make this video. i wld rate it 4/5. =))
so after that we hafta go training or sumth. den we played games as training. the most fun game is the LOOT. hahaz. very funny. wen cai told us all the jokes made during the game. the loot is about two teams, one defender and one attacker. so the defender will hafta defend the commander by hiding behind big big wooden doors (made by SBMY pple) and we have water bombs to shoot the coming attackers. the attackers have it too. it was really a fierce and terrible fight. hahaz. the team we against is rather violence. they threw the water bombs with great force de lohzz. walao. when hit u, it's water and pain.
so wen cai told us the jokes like sum pple of the same team bang onto each other and the water bomb bursts. both considered dead. and many more. really v funny.
ermz, cant rem wad we played le. anyway, after games were bathing. sighs. the toilet totally sucks lahz. i hate the toilets alot alot. hahaz. summore we were given really limited time to bath. i feel so unclean after bathing though. yucks..
den there were dhamma sessions too~ by ze ming and shi xiong. it was not boring at all i wld say. learnt a lot of interesting facts. den ltr went on to various stations which they taught us more dhamma in a more interesting way like having a Tom and Jerry show. really creative.
so slept at arnd 1am. hafta wake up at 6 plus. >.< totally tired.
so 2nd day i was really tired lahz. had dhamma sessions in the morning. then after that played a v vigorous game. having to go out of camp christine and walk to the various stations.
oh, i went to the Goat's farm as one of the stations. hahz. one of the job was to drink the goat milk. but well, i m allergic to milk. so was excused. =)) den went to touch the goats. so cute! hahaz.
den still got the River NIAO game. hahaz. the name created by the SBMY pple in the video. but i dun like to soak my sports shoes in the river. ah. my sports shoes stinks after that lahz. hafta air it.
still got flour smashing game.
then we were stopped halfway. din manage to get to the 4th station as sumone fell dwn. i wldnt tok about that sumone bahz. rather sensitive. at least tru the dhamma sessions, i learnt to treat pple with compassion and loving kindness and i tried to be neutral to him bahz. so i guessed we as a grp, shldnt treat that sumone like that or criticise him bahz. that wld totally defeat the purpose of this camp. now i noe why the organisers were so tolerant with him. Alvin even talk and joke with him. Laura tried to talk him round. i really admired these pple. at least, they dun make pple feel bad cos of their actions. which is really hard for sum pple to do so.
den after that, hafta run back in order to get 1000 extra pts. gosh. it was really far. tiring.
then after that, go bathe. again, not enuff time to bathe at all. =(
den it was the game of saving the hostage, which is said in the video that the hostage was one of the daughters of the oracle who were captured by the Farlala pple. however, there were FAKE hostages inside the toilets oso. so we have to save the REAL hostage. so one team as sent out at a time. it was another water bomb game. While we run to the toilets where the hostage was kept, there were pple throwing water bombs at us from sumwhere. of course, we have to avoid lohx. luckily i still can siam lahz. so we went into one toilet. okiex. i wld say we were sumhw din plan properly lahz. practically everyone went into that one toilet and the hostage was a FAKE one. dots. den pple started throwing water bombs at us. it hurts lahz. so we are dead. alot of jokes made in this game too.
so after playing this game, we went to make water bombs to prepare for the ultimate showdwn on sat. THE BIG WAR GAME. den after that we went to the hall to gather. and i was stung by a bee there. gosh. it was really painful lahz. den i cried like duno wad. the GL of my grp, yongting, was sumhw shocked by my tears. hahaz. well, i shed tears too fast le lahz. but when i was stung, it was really painful lahz. den wow, everyone started to get v tensed cos it's a bee. den yongting called ernest to go call the gal for first aid. he looked really shocked when he heard that i was stung. he like waited for 3 seconds then reacted to wad yongting said. den he wanted to run but slip and fell, den faster stand up to look for first aid. his actions were really funny. but well, i was too busy crying so cant luff. hahz. den everyone was staring at me. hahaz. really comical. but well, of course when i was stung, i cldnt luff lahz.
so all the treatment and everything. i felt really guilty after that lahz. duno how to say why. kekex.
then saw huiting on the way back to hall. i really felt like hugging her. haz. she is really veri chio oso. that time when i first saw her, i was totally stunned. cos i really felt that she is very pretty and she is so soft-spoken. a very good gf bahz. but shld be attached le bahz. such a nice gal. kekex. but i did manage to hug her finally. =))
so it came sat. had dhamma sessions oso. den we had the big war game. a war btw the Papaya kingdom pple with Farlala. so the 8 grps were joined into 4 tribes. and a total of 8400 water bombs were supplied to these 4 tribes. the Farlala pple are the organisers themselves. and we have armour and a castle wall for each of this tribe. and aluminium sheet is to be stapled onto the armour to symbolise the vitality plate of ours. so if we dun have the aluminium sheet stapled on our armour, we cldnt shoot water bombs at all. the top of the castle wall was oso pasted with aluminium foil.
the other tribes were supposed to shoot water bombs at our vitality plates to make us dead. a total of 25 armour,125 vitality plates were supplied to us. den if we are dead, we have to go into the place behind our castle wall to restaple new vitality plates so that we cld go out and shoot water bombs at other pple. den other pple were oso have to shoot dwn our castle wall by throwing water bombs at the top of the castle wall which is pasted with aluminium foil. once all aluminium foil is destroyed, that's the end of our castle wall.
so the blue team came first. gosh. they were really fierce lahz. they shoot the water bombs like wana tear dwn the castle wall like that. the yellow team oso. veri violent. in the end, our castle wall like wana die liaoz. the aluminium foil all like falling off. hahaz. so we din care. we go attack the yellow team castle wall, joining forces with the blue team and green team. so fun! cos i dun really like the yellow team, they are really violent. so of course, 3 forces are better than one.
so the organisers saw this situation. being the organisers, they oso being the Farlala pple, started attacking us. so we threw alot of water bombs at each other. so wet. but they horz, got one hard cardboard as shield lehx. blocking their vitality plate. cant aim at their vitality plate at all. grr. haaz. the farlala king was very funny oso. so it was ltr a war btw the organisers and the campers, a war btw the papaya kingdom and the farlala pple.
this the most fun part. every camper gathered their water bombs, and chiong to the farlala pple. throwing numerous water bombs at them. Ang Hwee even came out from nowhere and started attacking us. hahaz. den got one camper take him on. wow, it was like watching pple wrestling like that.
so numerous water bombs were thrown at the Farlala. and i tink Shi Xiong who is the Farlala King got hit on the face or sumth. he looked really pek cek to me.
oh, during the war, oso got shiny card hero. duno how to describe this. cos it's really long. but i really tink ALvin's role is very funny. being a hero, he is being called to staple the vitality plate. hero shld be put to gd use since he has very good power isnt it? hahaz. luff till i siaoz.
oh well, the war game was really fun. i cant really described it very well. but it's really a very very fun game. i love this game loads. will 4eva rem it! =)
den it was campfire and all those song singing. love the bonding. and the four heavenly kings, five general tigers, six rams (cant rem the exact name) 's cheers. they were really funny.
den stayed till 4am talking and playing, gg to guys bunk and stuff. jus so nice.
den today were all the photo takings and huggings and packing. den the organisers were supposed to make us cry. well, i did cry abit lahz. cos i told myself not to cry. but when i saw hongli cry till so red, and summore they sang the "yi lu shun feng" song, i totally cant resist my tears le.
Ehi-Passiko Camp rawks. i m gg to take part again in the future. it's really fun learning buddhism in this way!
and i wld say jy is really a good leader. she really leads well. jy, have more confidence in urself!
and Laura and Yongting really tried their best for our grps le bahz.
Ehi- Passiko
come and see u'll know!
i love SBMY!
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sighs. i gave up uploading pics.. duno why the blogger dun let me upload le.. =X so i shall jus rattle on about the trip..
hmm...after the Grand Palace, we went to eat bird nest and shark fin.. wow..altogether is 1300 baht for 3 pple..hmm...which is equivalent to 1300/24 ( lazy to calculate) hahz...
oh after that we went to the Chinatown.. gosh.. it's so crowded.. and the air is really POLLUTED..cough cough... but the place is like so many times bigger than Bugis in Singapore.. and the things there are very cheap.. hah.. but one bad thing is the price is very much cheaper when it's wholesale.. so it's like u hafta buy 6 pieces of e thing u wana buy to get a gd price..but u wldnt need 6 pieces right.. hah..but my dad really bought 6 wallets bcos of the price.. o_0 i wonder he needs so many wallet for wad.. n i realised that alot of the things there could be found in sing.. but at a much lower price in Thaliland.. then my dad was like saying most of them from sing buy their goods from here and then bring it back to sing to sell it at a much much much higher price.. hah.. but one bad thing in the Chinatown is that cars can pass by the roads that pple are shopping on.. so hafta really be careful of the cars on the path that u are walking on, which is really troublesome.. >.<
and i bought alot alot alot of accessories from Chinatown.. it's really alot.. hah.. my accessories amounted to 2000 baht.. >.< it's alot of money.. well, but hah. i wont buy in sing anymore le mahzz...gee... so bought more lohzz..
then took a taxi back to hotel and ZzzzZzzz...
10th dec:
this is the day which i bought the most things.. went to the Krung Thong plaza near my hotel.. hmm.. the clothes there were really so much that u duno which one to buy.. it's like throughtout this whole trip..we went to this plaza for 4 times.. and each time, we will have things to buy.. the clothes are jus too many to choose from.. again, it's wholesale.. so u really hafta buy 3 pieces and above from a shop b4 u can get the discounted price.. so i bought alot of clothes there.. it was really nice to shop in there.. cos u really can find alot of clothes.. and at a much cheaper price than in Sing..
then went to the world trade centre.. another haven.. hahz...now it's my dad's turn to shop. finally have sum sports shops where he can shop for his clothes.. and he manage to get his addidas sweater at 33 dollars.. which is 40 dollars cheaper than if u get it in Sing.. Singapore sells it at 70 sumth dollars.. acc to my dad..
i cant rem exactly wad happened after that.. but i love the japanese meal that i ate..but the serving is simply too much... let me try if i can upload the pic...
ahh.. here it is.. it's so much.. and it costs 120 bahts.. inclusive of dessert.. gosh.. hw can u find this price in Sing for such a big serving..
and this japanese restaurant is called Kobune, small boat (direct translation from chinese). i wld recommend those who are gg to thailand to try this restaurant. it's really nice. and also, u noe sing serve sushi in the form of belt like tht... they serve it in the form of a boat.. the sushi is on a boat.. but they does not put it on a belt.. they let the sushi on the boat to float on water.. and it starts moving on the water.. so creative!
oh oso.. we went to this MISTER DONUT shop. the donuts are not normal donuts.. the donuts are really special.. and when u bite it.. it's like very "you3 tan2 xin4", it doesnt taste like normal bread texture...here's the pic..
but i was not allowed to eat alot.. so only manage to taste two.. sighs.. i wonder when will sing have this donut.. tink it will sell pretty good? hahaz...
hmmm..now i cant remember which day i go which place.. but i will jus blog wad i wana blog bahz.. hahaz...
okiex.. so we went to the chachuchap..aiyo.. duno hw to spell.. hahz.. my mum said that it is a v nice place to shop.. but i tink otherwise.. my dad and i were pretty bored by it lahzz... but i managed to see sumth veri rare.. hah.. which is ....
can u guess what this is??
let's see more...
the final product
so now, have u all guessed wad's that?
hahaz... the first pic shows a bee hive. and subsequently, it shows a person squeezing honey with her BARE hands from the bee hive. gosh... *jaw dropped* i mean i can see bees flying arnd her when she is squeezing out the honey.. gosh.. i will be so scared to death when one bee fly near me.. let alone so many bees.. hahaz.. but she earned quite alot.. 300 bahts for arnd half a bottle of honey.. but it is really pure honey.. thick pure honey.. gosh..
hahaz.. so this trip i really saw alot of extraordinary things.. one more is this!
am i in a zoo in Thailand??!!! of course not!! that's an elephant on the street!! yes. on the street. hahaz.. i enjoy feeding it with sugar cane.. and it's really huge.. hahaz...but it's very cute too! it makes some noise when no one feeds it.. maybe it's groaning? hahaz...
another one is this!
a band jus appear from nowhere. but duno wad is the occasion. as i cant read thai words. hahaz. and it jammed the whole road. aiyo. then oso got children trying to act like monkeys. hahaz. they really look like one. i wld say that their acting skills are superb. but the whole stretch of road got jammed up cos of them.. tsk tsk...
here's one of the busy streets of thailand..
and their toilets were veri cute too.. got a big gal sign outside.. to show that it's a woman's toilet! their toilets oso got TV de... >.< so u get to watch tv as u wait for ur turn...
and puppies!!!
they keep biting each other..tsk tsk...
a sleeping puppy.. the puppy refuse to wake up to look at my camera.. =(
there were quite alot of beggars on the street too.. so dad kept donating.. sumhw.. i realli wish to see a gal again.. the gal is about 5 to 6 years old. and the mum leaves her at the foot of the stairs of a bridge to beg for money. while her mum is at the top of the stairs. maybe can earn more money this way? but i really pity that little gal. it's like her mum puts the cup for pple to donate money in front of her. and she jus sits behind the cup. and when i walked past her, she is playing with chopsticks, ignorant of wad pple is dd arnd her. she does not noe that she is begging for money. she does not noe that the cup in front of her is for pple to give her money. she does not know that she does not have enuff money for her daily needs. she does not noe wad she is dd at all. she is jus so innocent. sighs.
then the next day saw her again. she is eating a piece of bread. and the bread was really DIRTY. that kind of pple threw it on the street. but she is eating it cos that is the food she needs to keep her living. she cant eat nice food like us. she cant get to taste all those vege, meat which sum of us may dread it, esp vege. but she cant get to taste it at all. that shows hw fortunate we are, but yet, sum of us are not treasuring it at all. sighs.. wanted to give her more money de.. but, i nv got to see her again as the bridge is not really near my hotel.. i pray that there will be alot of nice pple hu will donate alot of money to her. innocent little gal. and she is sooOo cute...
enuff of that. and oh, did i mention that my flight to bangkok was delayed for 3 hrs?? sighs.. it was pretty irritating.. cos when i reached bangkok on 8th dec, it's pretty late already.. and i realised i cant take planes. i will feel like vomiting. sighs. i was wondering now i took the plane to bangkok is only 2 hrs and i already feel so sick already. wad if i wana fly to other further countries? sobs. sighs. how to overcome such sickness arhx.. hmm..
well, this shld be all for my trip to bangkok. will talk more if i managed to remember. this is the longest entry i tink. gosh. i took one whole afternoon to type this entry. well, i still got tok on the fone n such lahz. but wow, it took really long for me to type this entry. some more pics..
daddy and me, in bangkok airport.. leaving bangkok..
the hotel lobby of the hotel which i lived in..it's overall a nice stay.. but i wana stay in First Hotel in the future!!! THERE GOT SWIMMING POOL!! and the environment is superb..
bye bye bangkok!!
gosh. i really love this trip to bangkok! hope i can go again.. but daddy say he wans to bring mummy go next time ONLY.. humph! he dun wan me be a light bulb. nvm. i shall go myself or with my frens in future~ hahz.. let them have their honeymoon.. while i have my enjoyment.. kekex.. bleahzz..
oh to pw and nsh: eer.. so hu wan to have the tuition arhx? hahaz.anyway, i call my mum ask her fren's daughter then let u all noe ok? =))
and pw!! i bought sumth for u as ur bdae prezzie le..gee.. i tink u will like it veri much!! =)) *proud of myslef* gee..lalalala.. shall give u soon kaex! =)
oh, toking about pressies.. i bought so much from thailand that i duno to give wad. cos whenever i see sumth and tink it's cute, i wld jus take and tink "ah can be a present" hahz. shall go do sumth about those pressies later.
wow, so i m gg for camp tmr! packed. sighs. i haven pack lehxx...oopss.. I HATE PACKING..
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yippiex! back from thailand. so this entry shall be about the trip lo.. =)) it was really fun overall, but was tiring too, considering the fact that i must wake up at 7.00am (8.00am singapore time) walk the whole day till round 9pm (10pm sing time). my leg hurts like hell. hah...
so i have bought a lot alot of things. wow. i guess it's uncountable. spent alot toO~~ of course, ate quite a bit too =X
and i decided that i shall save the entry every now and then in case later blogger cant load or sumth n i hafta retype the whole entry...
so first day we went to grand palace. it was really MAGNIFICENT. i was totally amazed by this attraction. gosh. it's jus so BIG and GOLDEN. hah. here are some pics.
the pic when we jus reached.
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i m so bored now. like waiting the clock which is ticking so slowly to reach the time when we can finally set off. sighs. i wana slp. ytd chat with her till 3am. today hafta wake up at 10am to go guitar. yawns. yah. i slp alot. >.<
todae guitar was tiring. gosh. so hard to play. so luan4. i alwaes play the wrong note. den so paiseh. cos others are playing too mah. hah. n i hate reading those "dao gay" which i have yet to familarise myself with. but still, i love guitar. but guess it will really take sum time b4 i noe how to change my fingers quickly to play the chords which i m most not familiar with. yue4 nong4 yue4 luan4.
yupps. i called her ytd. eerr...initially it was really awkward. cos i duno wad to say. hah. den she started asking me jc stuff blah blah blah. so we started from there lohz. after that it's alright lah. i felt that the chat was really still the same as b4? hah.but glad that everything is really FINALLY settled b4 i go overseas. cos guess i dun have much time after i cum back from thailand considering the fact that i still hafta attend a camp after that. gosh. so packed.
so we chatted till like 3am and put dwn the fone. hmm, i guess both of us are not caring nor want to noe wad happened b4 and after and the details le. at least i dun wish to ask further le. i mean no point lah. ask so much, noe so much, so? it doesnt mean anyth animore. or at least, wad i wan is a bright future with them. i dun wish such things to happen again. i guess the most impt thing is to make sure that this type of thing WILL NV HAPPEN AGAIN. the rest, i dun tink it's worth to know further. =))
so finally, the thing that has been bothering me so much this few weeks is settled. really glad. but sumhw it seems to be a dream to me. really a dream. i felt as if i m dreaming. hahz. really. i din expect that i wld call her in the first place. ytd i pondered in front of the com for 2 hrs den call her. Lt was like call her lah. den i was like huhx.... so like keep pondering.. cos duno wad to say..
hmm, i guess i shall go lie dwn and try to slp b4 daddy wakes me up to go airport. =)) i m sOOo excited!!!
in the meantime, take care everyone!
i will miss *you* ...
P.S : to pw and nsh : u all plan to take up tuition izzit? till next year can? i have asked the sec4 pupil hu is my mum's fren, she wans tuition in Physics and Amaths. and she is studying in Chung Cheng High Sch Main. hah. so is the same school as us. but if u all wana teach, is teach till end of next year. can? i will try to ask her if u all wan. but not a sure yes that u all will get this job for now.. =)
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proudly present the piggies family!!! =))
<...hao duo hua dou lai bu ji suo, wo de lei zao yi fan lan fan lan...>
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finally i have finished watching qing shen shen yu meng meng. hah. i love qiong yao's plot soOo much. heyz, those pple hu have watched, did u all cry when u watched it? i cried like duno hw many times. hah. some scenes are really so touching. love it! kekex.
hmm, tmr early in the morning hafta go for guitar le. but i m quite worried about missing the next lesson. like ytd, he taught us alot of things. i was wondering if i have missed it, gosh, i guess i wont be able to catch up. hmm. but well, i cant possibly take an early flight to rush back jus to go to guitar lesson. hmm. oh well, i haven practise my guitar yet. shall practise it later since i m not addicted to qing shen shen yu meng meng animore. kekex.
hmm, i said i wld call her ytd right. hah. decided to do it today bah. since i was addited to qssymm ytd. so decided to watch VCD instead of calling.
yippiex! flying tmr! so excited. kekex. i jus hoped i wont fall sick. or else, everything will be so dead. oops. i haven packed my stuff to bring yet. too lazy to pack le. hmm. hafta do it ltr too. gosh, so many things to do. guess i cant cont to be stuck to this com le.
=i m trying all kinds of methods to forget ur presence, my feelings, my emotions that i cant face up with=
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hmm, my eyes have been glued on the com for duno hw many hrs le. hah. still stuck with my qing shen shen yu meng meng. i wana quickly noe the plot. but well, if i carry on watching, guess i wont make it on time for my guitar. sighs. i feel so guilty nw. i have been watching the show for the whole day, din practise my guitar nehx. >.<
ytd was truly an EVENTFUL day. well, said in the prev post that i went to ride bike right. yah. i went huh. it was initially very smooth and happy. we shouted our hearts out as we cycle as it was rather isolated on the path after the Bedok jetty. hah. it was really fun. i still cant believe that we cycled to the airplanes runway at Chnagi Airport. yes! we cycled till there. even passed the Safra Resort that the 2GR chalet was held. hmmm, memories~ Anyway, i even saw the landmark of Changi Airport! hah. even wanted to cycle to Changi Village. but realised it was a dead end. so we wanted to go back. here cums the most tiring and dreadful part.
so thanks to me. yah. i m really sorry. i thought we have came by a way, when she insisted that it was another. so i stood by my stand. so in the end, they followed the way that i THOUGHT was right. in the end, yah. WE GOT LOST. sorry. and it was really thrilling . cos we hafta cycle on the road. and wad's worse. it's not cars on the road. it's TRUCKS and LORRIES. those really BIG vehicles.and the road has 2 lanes.so we rode on one of the lanes. with those BIG LORRIES and TRUCKS beside us. >.< i was really scared lah. den the stupid vehicles oso kept "pong pong" us, trying to warn us. but we have no pathway to ride already! so after one long and tedious journey, we reached SAF YACHT CLUB. it was near the Changi Naval Base. den we asked someone hw cld we get back to ECP, she said hafta ride all the way out AGAIN! so we rode all the way in, now we needa go all the way out?! wad's worse, one of our bicycles tyre puncture!!! dots. and i daresay the journey was about having to ride more than 4.8km. and the bicylces dun cooperate with us. dots. so well, in the end, we returned the bicycles late by 2 hrs. and i cld not meet lt animore. as i hafta send my cousin back. really an adventurous day. i will nv ever ride so far again. with no water, no food, nth! all of us really felt like DYING after the ride.
so now, my whole body aches like hell. gosh. it's really a terrifying experience when u tink back. we almost got knock over sumore. sighs. i will nv direct the road ever again. sighs.
so now, i hafta go guitar le. sighs. and i still duno why papa is sOOo generous. he jus bought me ANOTHER water bottle (when my old one is still usable) and another waist pouch (when i have one nice one already). dots. i really hope to find out the reason. even my mum doesnt know. hmmm.
i have promised myself that i wld call her today. will i? i still duno.
yippiex! flying in 2 days time~~~~
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i sOoo wan to pick up the fone to call her now, but.. still i decided not to. first- it's late. 2nd- i still duno hw to start. sighs. i hope i can make the call b4 i go overseas. cos after that, i will be real busy. sighs.
okiex. enuff of the sad sad thing bah. hah. went out these 2 daes with my parents. n i really enjoyed it! hah. n we ate alot of nice things too. shhh.. >.<
hah. seriously i still duno why papa is sOoo generous these few days. but i did not ask the reason too. well, since he dum wan to say, i oso dun wan to ask further. hah. but it has been gg out. sOoo let's see..
ytd went to bugis and we ate the Ajisen Ramen. it rawks man. hah. i love the bowl of noodles i ate. forgot wad it is called. hah. and the salmon fishcake tastes veri nice too! =) but the bill is not nice at all. hah. but papa did not mind about footing the bill at all. hah.
den went to orchard. n i saw one really nice Billabong pants. but the price is veri nice too. >.< den i din say anyth since the price soOOOo nice. but after walking arnd, dad was like so pissed that he wanted to spend money to buy sumth for my mum and me yet we kept saying we dun like this we dun like that. so hah. i took advantaage of the chance. den say i wan the billabong pants. hah. so well, i got it. but was guilty of taking that adventage. sighs.
den i finally found the jacket i wan! but well, it ran out of stock. so papa put dwn his name. hope that i can get it asap. i so wan the jacket!
den ltr i bought two bottoms and one top. oh well, so in total, i spent about 150 dollars of papa's money. excluding the jacket. hmm.... but, i still duno why papa suddenly spend so much money on me. not that he does not spend money on me. but not so much bah.
den today went out again. but i din spend so much le. =)) and i m really shocked when papa said buy the top which costs 42.90 when the type of cloth used to make it was totally horrible. except that the design was nice. i totally... shhhoocckkeedd.. i mean huhx. so ex! and i m seriously puzzled now about papa way of spending money.hmm..
yeah! i jus hoped tmr's weather will be fine. cos i really wana go ride bike. so looking forward. i guessed i hafta settle alot of things b4 i go overseas. sighs. that doesnt sound nice at all. hmm.
i seriously need to find ways to improve my english.
i miss jie...
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hmm..it's raining outside now..love rainy daes.. esp rainy nites.. =)
i seem to have alot to do. but i dun seem to wan to noe wad i m supposed to do. m i spending my hols in the right way. i kept asking myself. i dun wan it to be ALL play. it feels weird. yah. weird. esp when i said i wanted to call her tonight. but now, i dun feel like calling at all and just wana tugged in to sleep. yah. a way to escape from reality. well, guess i shall hafta go check my "things to do after o's" in my blog entry to see wad to do bah.
watched a show.qing shen shen yu meng meng. yah. it's a long ago show and i m watching it the second time. bt i m jus soOOoo addicted to qiong yao de plot. her stories are all soOoo interesting. hmm, hw nice if that kind of character like he shu huan exists in this world that i m living in. but well, that's drama. not real life. at least, perhaps, in the next life then i will meet this kind of guy bah.
sighs. i m sOooo hungry now. as wad i said, shld a crsis happens, i tink i will die. cos my hse totally dun store up food. well, todae go out ate quite a bit, so hafta skip my dinner. but now, i m sOooO hungry, and the hse ishx soOooOo kong1 =( cant stand it.
and ytd received the edusave scholarship. n i werent excited at all though i din expect that the little letter will end up in my letter box. but my parents were so happy and excited like duno wad. i cant help but keep laughing at their expressions. they like strike 4D like that. then i was telling them about i wont be the top 5 percent anyway. then they were like.... -_-| my mum even took out the past years letter to compare every wording, saying that the every of the wording is the same as past years. then i was like, nvm. when i get the cheque next yr, then u noe le. den my dad even make a bet of if i din get 500, he give me 200. if i get 500, i have to give 200 to him. hmmm.... still tinking whether to take up the bet anot.
n my guitar steel spring makes my fingers hurt like hell. grr. i wan a nylon string guitar. and it sounds nicer with it. so if i ever manages to bcum a tutor, my first salary will be the guitar! =) of course, a treat for my parents too. well, that is IF i manage to get the job. hah. mum still din tell me anyth.
i wana buy a lot of things!
n i m missing jie! sighs. life feels weird w/o u arnd lehx. dun like the feeling of telling myself that even if i search the whole singapore, i wont be able to find yyooouuu. ='(
i m getting sleepy. guess i will forget about making that call..
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sighs. i m banned from gg out. except from gg guitar ltr. ='( cos of this stttuuuiipppiiddd fever which came with no symtoms at all. except on tues when i felt sick afer the nap. sighs. luckily ytd cancelled the trip with jie. or else i wld have pangseh her. hah. sighs. cant go out. stae at home stare at this sq screen. abit boring lehz. but ytd was so much worse. sighs. can this sickness get lost soon. and can this fever and throat infection of mine goes off soon. >.<
so ytd though i stayed at home, i practically did NOTHING. cos of fever sighs. i only noe i slept practically ALL DAY. except for a few hrs of watching the tv, which i kept changing the channels. the programmes aint nice at all. wanted to leave ytd to practise guitar. but it turns out so bad. haiz. my mum says u slp so much cos u needa compensate e slp hrs that u lost this whole year round. which i tink otherwise. cos mrs tan says b4 the slp hrs lost cant be compensated ritex. >.<
and mummy told me ytd that her fren's daughters need tuition and call my mum to recommend the tutor i have. but he is NOT AVAILABLE now or next year. hah. someone is gg to the states worz~ so nice. haiz. so there goes my JC physics too. kinda sad, but well.. so her fren said why dun call me go teach. *pengz* the sec3 pupil??!! when i m only sec 4??!! dun tink i m capable to teach the sec3 de bah. ltr her grades super lan4, den i die. hah. but she gt one Primary 5 de daughter, sae can let me teach. hmmm.. i dun mind that. since it's P5. shld be okiex. but... still... hmmm... see how lohzz.. but this kind of job is nice lehzz.. dun need to be tied dwn for one whole month. so while i can earn money, i can still enjoy my hols~~
so jie ishx going off todae! jie, take care on ur trip to Perth worx~ hah. cant send u off as i have guitar. so sorry. but meanwhile take care and c u when u cum back! MUST call me up when u cum back kaex... =)) *hugs* (ermz, that is if u see this msg b4 u go off?) hah.
Found this msg veri meaningful:
~ I've learnt to let a lot of things go, because it's just easier that way. I've realized how much better off I am apart from all the unnecessary drama and stress that used to contribute to my daily life. In short, it's time to cut some people out of my life, and keep those who make life worth living. I may have lost some, but I've gained so much more.
thankful to be free, and starting new.~ =))
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