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20th august 1989
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hmmm..todae performance was successful..!!! though well..i forgt sum dancesteps! n sumth realli dots happen too..hahazz...but aaron and learn khang's break dance spice up the whole thing...that's so nice!! lalaalalalzz...i guessed all the guys are into the break dance nw which aaron successfully spread it arnd..hahazz..okiex but well...jus hope they dun get injured kaex? *touchwood* but seeing them do ishx realli scary...cos may anytym lose balance n........ well well..n their face will get so flushed up when they do it..prelims cum le n olevels on the wae..beta dun play play..hahazz...=)))
todae gave pressiez to the chers..n interrogated them on the songs that we have for the performance...well..ms khair cant get the superstar de..n mrs tan..okiex lahzz...kekexx...but cant find mrs yee...=((( but her dance on stage was splendid..so cute!!! *giggles*
well...bio prac ishx cuming soon n all moi prelims papers are piling up n i m getting realli ssssssttttttttrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeesssssssssseeeeeeeddddddddddd...can ya see the word??but if cant,nvm..cos i dun wana see too...=(
n papa cut his hand when he ishx cooking for dinner...*heartbroken* n he refuses to go see doc when his wound ishx so deep..aiyo..both moi parents are so stubborn..dun go c doc when sumth happens to them..bt when sumth minor illness or wad happen to moi n moi bro,they will push us to the clinic...tsk tsk..i noe wad are their intentions nahzz...but...i realli worry for moi dad..the wound ishx so deeepppp...scary....hmmm..i shall make him go c the doc! he beta go! humph!!
well,i m getting addicted to panadols n water...=(
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phew..i feel so warm now..hahazz...was trying to do the dancesteps for "superstar" n "queen of moi heart"---> 4Bn performance for teacher's dae!
it will be a wonderful dae!!!!! no matter wad,we can do it!!!!!!! yeah!!! *excited* tmr will be a success...so happiexx...
okiex...i duno wad exactly i m feeling..well..wadeva it ishxx...thanks for all those pple arnd moi..i noe i said thanks alot of tyms..but well..i tink i reaali cant get on with life without all the support u all gave moi..of cos moi parents too..cant imgaine wad moi world will be w/o u all! *luv ya lots*
once again...
4 BENVOLENCE RAWKSSS.......
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stressed...
tears..
disappointed..
despair...
jus nice to be on the verge of breaking dwn...
i collapsed...
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hmmm...din noe the claz blog ishx up le..hahazz...i m waiting for an invitation..!! i wana post...*hints hints* haahzz..
bN cLaZ bLog
take a look bahzz...
awww..bn pple mus post n post..
i bet crys will be so happiex that finalli she dun nid go schdna to post entries n claim it as her blog when it's not..hahazz...
finalli i have the freedom to cry todae le..haizz...mummy sick sick...i oso duno how..argh...worried worried worried..that's all i can sae..bt being sumone hu cant express moiself..i guess mummy will tink that i dun care bout her at all..haizz..nvm..i wan mummy to get well soon can le..mummy dun wan go c doc..how how how..argh..i hate tis..i wan mummy to sing moi the bdae song again...i wan mummy to get well soooOonnnn..i wan mummy to recover..i miss the healthy mummy..i wan mummy......................................................................
*tears*
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hmmm..jus tot of posting the pics..n show the cute pink piggiex i was toking bout..it's sOooOo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaz...hugs hugs hugs...kekexx..dun u agree that's it's cute..hahazz...
jus wana thanks those hu wishes moi happiex bdae..esp the msg which ishx a hurhem..hahazz..told xuan n crys..n we were luffing n luffing n teasing too..hahazz...anywae..thanks for all the wishes..luv moi mummy lots too..hahazz..she in the middle of the nitex sing happiex bdae song to moi! soOo sWeEt ritex..kekexx..but i was half asleep though..kekexx...ahhHh..those wishes realli sOOo touching tooo!! thanks...
okiex..soOo todae went paya lebar n STUDYYYY...okiex..wad can i do..though i realli din wana spend moi sweet 16th bdae which i have alwaes looked forward to to studying..but well..prelims ishx cuming..cant afford to play..this the most eerr..stagnant bdae i eva had..but well.ishx beta than those bdaes which i cried cos of that stupid person hu scolded moi! i will neva forget that..humph!...
anywae...crys was soOo sweet..she bought moi a cake while i was toking to pris..was like dun buy dun buy dun buy..i mean it's awkward to have one person singing happy bdae wif the cake..den she called... dun tink i shld sae hu here..bout wad flavour i like as i refused to tell her..den i was -_-| cos din wana call her mahzz..hahazz..
okiex though the cake wasnt big..i realli luv it..oh...it was embarrassing though..cos crys no lighter to light the candle..den i was like..nvm..i shall kipz the cake..=)) den she went to ask the foodcourt auntie for lighter..i was ....... hahazz..but well..dun have..so i kept the cake into the long john's box which ishx realli nice..hahazz..den suddenly the auntie came n say, nahzz..the lighter u wan..i borrowed from that uncle..since it's ur bdae..no candle nt good...use this lighter bahzz..or else no candle to celebrate den later sad sad..for a moment..it realli touched moi..the auntie was soOo good as to borrow the lighter for moi..hahazz..so lighted the candle..crys sang the bdae song..well..embarrassed as the lighter incident was seen by many n they were looking at moi...>.< hahazz..so i made moi wishes..hurhur...den blow the candle..so long since i blew a candle..kekexx...den kept the cake though crys insists that i eat it..thanks crys...luv ya lots...
so we were studying and toking..quite productive todae..except i realised the impending doom of egeo test which ishx soOo mani chapts..haizz...if i fail..i oso heck care le..exam dun needa learn so mani de mahzz..dotss...
well..i shall not blog bout the unhappiex stuff bahzz...hope i can keep moi tears till 12 am since it's not nice to cry on bdae...
mummy nt feeling well..wahhhHhh!!!!!!!!!!!! humph..on moi bdae?! haizz...yawn..shall cont studying n once again...i luv moi pig n happiex bdae...!!!!!!!=)))
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piggiex backside..hahazz...so cute!! but it has such a short tail!
the door hanging thingy i was toking bout..hahazz..find it cute though..but as it ishx make of clay..dun tink i will use it in case it breaks..=X
piggiex side vieww...hahaz..
piggiex fRONt view..so cute...hugss...
finalli....the LOooOOoONgggG pen...
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jus tinking of posting the prezzies i got ferz the 15 n sweet 16th bdae! =)))
isnt the elephant cute???!!! hahazz...n the bear bear frm pw mummy n the purse from mel plus sweet bdae letters
hmmm...me to you bear...luv it sooOo mucHhh...=)))
all the prezzies biGGg family..see the pink pig!!! i love it sOOo much! =)
the doggiex look so real ritex..mum wans it..so i lend her lohzz..hahazz..
n the BIgGGgg PIGGIEX N THE LOOoOOoNG PEN is here!! hahaz...luv it sOoo muCh..grapey piggiex..hahazz..
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I LOVE THE PINK PIGGIE(GRAPE FLAVOUR) N THE HUGE PEN THAT XUAN,PRIS,CRYS,LING,PW MUMMY,NSH NUER,HUILING,DENISE,TIAN TIAN ALL GIVE MOI. I LOVE THE PINK PURSE THAT MEL GAVE MOI. I LOVE THE CUTE CUTE DOOR HANGER THAT RUTH GAVE MOI. I LOVE EVERYTHING! =)) THANKS FOR REM MOI BDAE! MUACKS!
e pink piggiex ishx sOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cute... n it smells so nice...i keep smelling it..hahaz..prays that pw mummy din salivate on it while it was with her last week..nahzz..jus joking...but i luv the piggiex so much dat i cant bear to put it aside le!!!!!!! ahHhhHHh...hahazz...but i cant afford to dirty it..hmmm...luv it so much...realised that the size of the pig ishx actualli quite big when u see frm top..but when u hug it...it seems to eerr..suo1 shui3...hahazz...cos it's all cotton inside i tink...haizz...bt too bad...the stupid cam dun allow moi to post the piggiex foto up...grr...exasperated when i tried so mani tyms le...grrr...
hmmm...well...i have tot it tru too le lahzz...well..ling ah..though i cant put moiself in the centre of moi world..i jus wana stae happiex for now..i duno if i can do it or not..i jus wana try bahzz..i mean well..wad can i do since nth can be done n even hw much i cry..sumone out dere jus duno it...perhaps wad mr davamoni said was ritex..u wana feel appreciated when u are with sumone..which i find extremely true...thanks pris for entering moi world recently too..hahazz..i mean realli in depth lahzz...din noe we are soOo close in character until recently..thanks for being moi listening ear too..recently has so mani ears..hahazz..luckily i have u to tok to these few daes..or else i guess i will be flooded in tears..=(
but m i being hypocritical?bt wad can i do?i cant tel that sumone out there bout hw i feel...i mean hu cares?does that sumone care?i dun even noe...haizz...
hmm...todae overall ishx so nice! hahaz...initially pris xuan wanted to go out wif moi to pei moi on the eve of moi bdae..well..i love the eve of moi bdae..i dun like the bdae dae itself actualli..so well..initialli suo hao yao chu qu de..but well..4bn has teacher's dae audition at 3pm..haizz..den not alot of pple stayed back..so well...in the end din go out but went for auditions since it's realli bad to leave the claz in lurch jus like that..so well..practised the "queen of moi heart"
song..initially sing it was so touched norxx..nearly cried..but well it's foolish to do that nahzz...anywae..i got numb to the song as we sang it all over again n again..hahazz..but i wana sae..TIGER singing skills ishx superb!!!!!!! though he may like zou yin sumtyms..but he sings real well...pei fu pei fu..so in e end..onli 12 pple went for audition..pathetic...
den went out to eat moi lunch plus dinner together with pris xuan they all lahzz..i m seriously starved..hahazz..den eat quite abit..which i m realli guilty...cos well..i m supposed to lose wt..but considering that ishx lunch n dinner..it console moi lahzz...so was crapping again in py kfc...hahazz..den went hm le..
tried to do sum hmwk..but i was soOo sleepy..so slept bit le..oh...watched qing ding ai qing hai jus now..soOo sweet..hahazz..luckily todae ishx a sweet episode..for the past episodes was all sad sad de..den moi mood gets real sink dwn cos of it..luckily todae the episode ishx soOo sweet...kekexx..
so finished moi lit essay..haizz...gottaz cont piaing sum prelim papers...stressed..haizzz...i still duno whether to go airport or paya lebar tmr or dun go aniwhere at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grr...help!!!!!!!!! haizz..kinda sad that i have to go study on 20/8/05!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrr...why cant i enjoy moi sweet sixteen bdae which i alwaes look forward to?grrr...haizz..life ishx alwaes like dat..haizzz...study study study..wad have u..haizzz...
okiex tis ishx a super long entry..n well..i started typing this at 11:17 pm n now it's 12:02 am?wow...19/8 to 20/8...cool...well..cos was toking to hy bout jc stuff..toodles!!!!
luv the piggiex so much!~
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hmmm...haizz..wad shld i sae...jus had a nasty weekend..it has been soOo long since i cried soOoo much..haizz...
ling arhxx...well..though ur advice ishx realli precious..i m still unable to put moiself at the centre of the world..moi world...ishx chaotic now..it needs sumone..but as u noe..dat sumone neva noess...it seems as if nth ishx being realised tis few daes..wad m i..well...haizzz...
well...things are getting worse as usual...sumone out dere jus dun realise it...why u tink that...i duno...m i worth a cent to u..or...r u jus sumone hu i hate hu takes things for granted..argh...
no wae can i cont tinking bout tis animore..the nightmare ishx cuming...stressed....
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so here i m..adding an entry..jus cos of CRYSTAL!!!!!!!!!!...hahazz...
okiex..she wans moi to sae in here that she ishx cute nice sweet loving n eerrr...din managed to hear more as i cant realli hear wad she says on the fone..hahazz...she wan moi entry to be filled with her name...hmmm..
anywae..todae went py kfc again to study with CRYSTAL n ling...well..okiex lahzz...except we gt realli crappy sumtyms..
moi eyes hurts so muchiex now..haizz..cant believe that i cried cos of her...well..felt realli hurt jus now..n cried as if sumth big happened..mummy was like..cuming in n out of e room to c if i m still crying nt..though she din ask wad happened..tink she dun dare too..kekexx...
anywae..thanks ling for ur console n advice..it realli means alot..as well..i guessed i wldnt stop crying w/o u by moi side..luv ya lotss...
oh..oso the CRYSTAL!!..no lahzz..seriously needa thanks n luv her too..hahazz..cos u've been lending moi a listening ear since duno when..until last wed it reaches its "peak"..kekeex...thanks for being such a great fren..realli..aft toking to ya on wed..felt much beta..kipz wad i told u a secret k...though i still duno wad to do bout it..haizz..
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todae had fun out with ben,pris n crys..hahazz..
we went py kfc to study...well..of cos we ate first..din wana eat at first..bt den noe that papa neva cook dinner..so eat lohxx..since i can skip dinner..kekexx..
den we ate..crap a lot..was luffing till the quiet kfc filled with our voices..kekexx..
den well...we finalli settled dwn n do the vectors ws...initially,cos ms sharm tot vectors long ago..as tis week not much of her lesson..so was pretty confused..gotta thanks ben lotss..he seems to have a memory that processed at a 3.0 x 10 to the power of 8 speed...(speed of light =D) the first qn which we duno how to do..he jus read.den sae..orhzz..u c arhxx..like that..blah blah blah..
so with ben teaching..managed to finish 16 qns on the ws..hahazz...ben make moi gain moi confidence..initialli was realli demoralised by vectors..guessed crys felt soOO too..but well..aft that..the qns were able to handle..well,initially i wanted to complete 15 qn de..den went on to 16..well,cant stop it..hahazz..den ben was like saying..well..den she (me) ishx at 15...later she do 25..den tink..aiya..do 30..den well..might as well complete whole ws..i was like -_-||
but in the meantym..we make lots of lame jokes too..got one..ben trying to duno shoot hu..den ask hu died which i realli duno how to play..den tink he wanted to play a game with me..den he was like...huimin..i teach u tis..if i tel u tis..blah blah blah..den he stepped moi leg..i shouted................................ hahazz..it was meant to be quiet..n i shouted..was soOOo dotss...hahazzz...i m supposed to kipz quiet..bt well..i din noe..hahazzzzz..o everyone was like luffing like siaozz..hahazz..n ben gave that kind of eerrr...dots look bahzz...
okiexx...den moi mum called ask moi realli dun wan dinner n stuff...den ben said sum considered...not soOo good words lahzz..den moi mum heard it..tink she gt rather suspicious with hu i m with...dotsss...den crys n pris add it too..hmmm...
realli luv tis studying cum laming session..bt fun gottaz end sumhw..prelims in 13 daes..haizz...getting nearer n scarier...gottaz buck up..i wana prove those pple wrong..i wana do it well n prove those pple wrong..i wana get to VJC most imptly..i wana take that course..wish moi luck..it's tough...
intensive learning...
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tears which i hated..
emotions which sumhw took ctrl instead..
i din wan that to happen..
but i lose complete ctrl of moi mind,moi tots,moi soul..
dun understand..
nvm...
thanks ling for the sweet messages..it realli does its wonders..anywae..love spending tym with ya..at least..u make moi feel worthwhile..i guessed u noe wad i m toking bout bahzz..since i told u wad i tot of sumone else out dere...haizz..i still duno wad i m tinking n dd ishx correct or nt..i m out of place..haizz..but ling..thanks lots for bringing moi hope..love u lotss...
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decided to change skin back..since that skin ishx nt working..
n sumhw..i like tis skin alot..
kekexx
okiexx...todae cross country..hmmm..wanted to run..but xuan they all realli decided to walk..
so not with pw oso..
so jus walk..
until we found pw..
den we ran..
hahazz..
but well well..
took photos on the wae too..
it's fun!!!..
hahazz..
though a bit dotsss...
okiex..i learnt a lesson todae..
neva sae the wrong th..
why?
cos well..
sumone..
tink ishx aaron..
go n sae..
"shi 4BN de jiu bu yao pao"
(dun run if u are sumone from 4BN)
so i was trying to make sum lame jokes..
by saying..
shi 4BN de jiu bu yao pao..
and i was running..
while i sae tis words..
was trying to lame..
in the end..
i became a lamer..
why..
cos i fell down.....
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so dots...
it has been long long tym since i fell dwn..
n the floor at ecp ishx realli rough lohzz..
jus a feel..
moi knee cap immediately filled with blood...
.........
was like...
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tot fell dwn jus a few scratches..
in the end..haizz..
n it hurts...
wahh..
but well..
i dun like pple to stop cos i fell mahzz..
so i jus cont luffing n saying nth lohzz..
xuan was like..
go st john..
but din go..
i dun like pple to treat moi wound..
n dun like to be treated like a "patient"
so i cont walking..
hahazz..
but cant run le..
='(
den reached end pt..
ling was sOO gd to bring moi to st john..
cos i dun wana go home with a blood filled knee cap..
summore...
the blood coagulates le..
so hard hard de...
cant realli clean it..
so went with ling to st john..
den ms lam was there...
so she was saying..
the UFO landed on ur leg izzit..
cos we sprayed our hair red b4 we ran for cross country..
den ms lam said UFO landed on our head..
cos sOO red...
den now moi knee cap gt red blood..
so gt UFO lohzz..-__-|||
den ms lam when we wana leave st john le..
went on saying...
rem to sae HI to the aliens for moi okiex?
was like...
dotssssssssssssssss...
hahazz..
overall things were fun todae..except that i became a lamer..
hahazz..
hmmm...i m getting more n more irritated as the daes go by..
i may try to tolerate..
but u are realli testing moi patience..
dun make moi flare up one dae..
cos i can..
to tolerate doesnt mean i approve of ur behaviour..
nt at all..
wad's wrong with u?
i m getting realli irritated..
stupid..humph!!!!
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Leo is a Fire sign and it represents the domicile of the Sun, the exaltation of Mars, the exile of Saturn and the fall of Uranus.The people born under this sign have a great self-conscience and a great courage given them by Mars; they have a flair for the realisations in life and generally a great sense of pride that characterises them.They tend to drag others towards reaching an ideal and during the course of their life they achieve a great prestige in the work sector also because they are able to control the reins of any situation.But when the Leo does not succeed in reaching his objectives, depression gets the better of him with consequent dejection in the personality.When the Sun is in harmony with Venus, there is a balance in the family and love sector, while in cases of conflict there are subjects inclined to be obsessed with power, but who are often inconsistent
took this from xy blog..jus tot that it is quite true..hmmm...
went to mac todae cos tutor cant cum lohxx..so gt whole dae to study..but i was realli ti bu qi jin during the morn..den went mac..
n the stupid thing was..
there is a pervertic old man..
hu keeps staring at moi..
was real pissed off..
argh...
saw him quite a no of tyms..
jus tot that well..perhaps he has no where to look..
dat's why have to look straight..
n i m infront of him..
but todae gt quite irritated..
cos he jus kipz staring..
gt real pissed off..
den cant do moi work too..
so i shifted...
tot i was finalli out of his sight..
den hu noes..
he cum to where i shifted and sat opposite moi..
i was like...
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den i was soOO soo pissed off that i purposely shifted to another place..
jus bside..
but the pillar blocked his view..
so i m spared from his staring..
but!!!!!!!!...
i dun quite like e place..
cos veri near toilet...
so i shifted to sum where behind..
den!!!!!!!
dat stupid old guy...
go sit the prev place i sat which can see moi!!!!!!!!!!!
grrrrrrrrrr...
finalli...
after duno how mani minss...
he went off..
was quite surprised that he decided to go off..
den i realised
i guess he noes hu moi dad ishx..
at the tym when he went off..
moi dad came into mac to find moi regarding tmr...
so i guessed he shifted cos he scared moi dad can do anyth to him?
den went back hm with papa..
den realised that he din went out of mac..
he was at the other side of mac..
real pissed with him!!!!!!!...
grrr..
pervert...
humph!!!!!!!!
if i eva sees him again..
i will play the shifting place game again..
call moi dad dwn in the meantym..hahazz..
but dun tink ishx gd nahzz...
may get moi dad into trouble..
so that pervert beta be careful!!!!!!
stupid man!!!!!
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i m surrounded by different kinds of pple
who i duno hu shld i follow..
i duno wad i m dd ishx ritex or ntss..
i does dun have an individual mind..
life ishx getting more stressful each dae..
though..
tests are getting lesser
n tests are nt counted..
so wad?!
we are faced with prelims n olevels..
big nightmare..
it wont be one if one manages to do well..
but for moi..
i m realli feeling miserable..
argh..
i m tired..
but i cant sleep..
cos i needa study..
haizzz..
n i guessed..
i even have to give up moi bdae cos of prelims n olevels..
haizz..
sweet 16...
has been an age..
a bdae dat i've alwaes look forward to...
but now..
it's all jus dreams n hopess..
none of it is reality..
5 daes to olevels oral..
20 daes to prelims..
hw prepared i m?
nt at all...
*stressed out*
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hmmm..
i decided to type like tis..
cos moi post alwaes long long de..
guess alot of pple find it tedious to read..
kekexx...
anywae..changed moi blogskin le..
but that stupid blinkiex on moi ritex refused to work..
wahhh...
spend so much tym on it..
in e end the blinkie dun work..
give up le..
can anyone help?
yeah!!!!!! mummy cum back from thailand le!!!!!!!
so happiexx..
she din buy cutties nor softiex toys for moi though...='(
but she bought alot of things for moi nahzz..
jus sum small small cuties..
i luv the shirt she bought for moi!
i love the doggies band she got for moi...
i love the doggy wallet that she got for moi!
i love the slippers that she bought for moi!
most imptly...
luv mummy so muchiex!!!!!!
so well..all those things that she bought for moi will be a
be-earlied(ishx there such word) birthdae present..
but i dun wan moi presents for moi bdae so EARLY!!
waahhh...
which means i cant ask her for the piggy at bugis le..
have been looking at it for so long..
was thinking of askin mummy to buy moi for birthdae..
nw she bought all those things from thailand..so i cant get the piggy le..
haizz...
nvm!!! i shall be positive bahzz..
but still..wahhhh..
okiex..todae aft sch study wif pw mummy..
den in library saw wei lin!!!!!!!
hahazz..
we both found each other familiar at first..
but duno hu each other r..
so was trying to recall..
hard tym recalling though..
until she asked if i m frm cdc..
i was like yahzz..
den rem she was e director of "sheng"
awww...so mani memoriess..hahazz..
the sec one moi..
the jus learning hw to act moi..
trying hard to act in "sheng"
until now..
wow..
tym realli flies..
so was chatting wif her..
gt realli excited n keep luffing..
hahazz..
in the end the library was nt quiet at all..kekexx..
hmmm..den was teaching pw mummy electronics..
hmm..din noe i noe tis chapt well though..
still need moi tutor for moi qnss...
well..
found that i m realli dependent on him though..
in the past jean thought moi was like
wana find the ans by moiself until i m at moi wits end..
cos jean was alwaes nt answering moi qn..
humph!!!!
so tmr will be a busy busy dae..
but i will luv the place i m gg to tmr
*excited*
*why u neva cum find moi le*
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yeah! now in com lab one! hahaz...did finish the NE test..which ishx so fun n lame...stupid robots..hahazzz...hmm...now nsh n denise learning biology...while i m here blogging..tsk tsk..haizzz...later still gt lit..pw mummy reading moi blog which she could not read at hm..aiyo...sad sad...haizz...later gt elit test...but the maths test ishx over...sOO no more tests le! yeah!!! oops...later gt chem..cant learn lit le..wahhhhh...haizz...crys now asking bout lit..haizz..tsk tsk..i m still here..xuan criticises moi blog!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahHHHHHhhhHHhhh....sae moi music interferre with her com music...wahHhhHhh....xuan now sae wana do sumth to moi blog...wahhHhh...0.O wonder wad crazy idea she will cum up with...haizz...yeah! so i shall end moi post now!!!!!! crys toking to moi now...tok so fast...buaiz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cya!!!!! *i m crazy todae*
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