All That I've Got

Wednesday, July 20, 2005
-5:31:00 PM-

jus depressed...haizz...

anywae...ytd went to jj "concert" at np..hahazz..so happiex..took quite alot of pics..though moi cam ran out of batt half wae..i hate dat batt..gg to change it! humph!...well..we were latee...so we were at the back of the queue..not realli back though lahzz..i guessed i may have die of luffing ytd..hahazz..joleen n ben jokes were like so lame but cant stop luffing..hahazz..

tink jj album ishx realli worth listening n buying..though till now..i m still abit blur bout wad all his songs ishx trying to sae..i still cant catch the essence of it..but i will try to find it one dae..most prob aft moi olevels..it cum first b4 anyth except moi parents though..kekexx..bt ytd he tok about how his songs were made and why were it so..realli felt that he ishx a great talent..n i even cried during one of his MVs...hahazz...it's realli an album worth buying n listening to get essence of it..cos it's not a cliche album whereby all the songs are about LOVE..jus Love..at least..his album has a wider scope to moi..=)))

but i m so elated that i managed to get his autograph n shook his hands!!!!!!!! so happiex..kekekex..realli love ytd!! it was so fun (weelll cos of the trip to np n how ben pris joleen jy michelle n moi make sum funny jokes) n memorable...aaaaaaaahhhhhhh..jus hope dat olevels will be over asap..lalalala..

but no matter how happiex ytd may be..it has to cum to an end sumhw...duno why..i felt so depressed the moment i woke up tis morn..haizz..dat's why i din tok much n avoid pple whom i most prob will quarrel with cos of realli trivial matters dat get on moi nerves though..jus tok to pw mummy todae ..i mean tok real lot to her lahzz..rest..okiex lahzz...haizz...

i cant even believe dat i was so depressed dat i even cried in clazz..aiyoo...tsk tsk...haizz..jus cant ctrl..but luckily no one notice..perhaps the cher..

den huang lao shi lesson made moi even more eehhh..sad?i duno..sumhw...when tok bout topics of life..i get real depressed..cos u cant change these things..u have to accept it willingly though reluctantly..but wad can u do? how huang lao shi tok bout his marriage n children realli touched moi sumhw..i mean..no matter hw much u love sumone..when u cant express it well..it means nth to that sumone..n oso success n happiness..which wld u chose?we cant have both of these worlds..have to choose one sumhw..but sumhw..humans cant forgo both or have one n be contented wif it..we wan more n more n more...wad for?i duno..i feel as if i m the slave of tis ironic world dat we are living in..the slave of tis word "money"..why we humans ask for so mani things when in the end,the final route for us ishx still death?wad we have achieved can neva be brought along with us...den why don we jus live our daes happily as it ishx..do the things we like..but ironically..though we hear these words sumtyms..we are still bombarded by the need to study, to achieve gd results, to get into a gd sch, to carve out a career n finally wad's the aim? to earn as much money as u can to enjoy life..but are u happy..at least i m not..cos i dun like to be controlled..i wan to do wad i wan in this one lifetym dat i have..bt too bad..it's an ironic world dat we are living in..we jus have to accept things...haizz...

i feel sumth missing..but i duno wad it ishxx...i m jus sinking into depression..like neva b4..it has been long since i bcum so emotional n let emotions rule moi mind n not moi brain..tis feeling ishx neva gd..i dun like tis feeling at all..bt once again..so wad if u dun like?u have to accept it..haizzz..wad ishx this world all bout?

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