haizz...the wall btw us seems to be building up sumhw..i duno wad to do..i try nt to tink of him..but still..sumhw..i cant do it...i m trying to find mani things to occupy moiself..still..i cant..haizz...i wan to tel him sumth dat he himself will certainli be veri happiez to hear bout..but i cant bring moiself to sae it..moi pride ishx holding mi back...real back...dat i dun feel like saying it at all..cos i dun wan him to be under e impression dat..haizz...suo lai suo qu..hai shi wo de cuo..cos i m too proud to sae dat...haizz...moi hp has been sOoo not quiet todae..but nt cos of him...haizz..in e past..it can be real "noisy" cos got him to acc moi..but nw...he left..we r like in 2 different worlds...it seems so near yet so far..i still cant put moi pride dwn to tel u dat..haizzz..i cant expect anyth..when u r nt wif mi,i realli wana find u out..bt when u sms moi or ishx wif mi..i sumhw,gave u a cold shoulder..yahzz...tis ishx moi fault..but..i cant do anyth to moiself..cos i oso duno if i take a step forward,izit beneficial for both of us,or jus giving each of us false hopes..i dun wana take ani risk again.
finalli,the hp has been noisy jus now cos of him..but he din reply le..guess he used it "illegally"..aiyo..why sOOo guaizz huhzz...all i noe ishx other pple nt so guai de nehxx...well,perhaps as tym past by,u wont be so guai le bahzz...bt dat will be gd for mi..hahahazz..haizzz...
hmmm...ytd went to moi cousin bdae party..din feel like gg actualli..haizzz..since moi grandma pass awae..i havent been close to moi relatives le..cos..well..dey simply ishx biased towards moi bro dat i simply cant stand it..but wad past ishx past..wad's the use of dwelling upon them when they will jus tink dat u r being petty..i cant stand it sumtyms...i have been avoiding moi relatives nowadaes..haizz..moi biao mei share the same tots as mi..perhaps..both of us receive the same treatment bahzz..dat's why..so ytd..i went..wanted to play wif that little cousin of moi hu ishx turning 2 yrs old..but he jus kipz running arnd..hahazz..n sOOo mani pple wan him..i dun like seeing dat..so i jus walked awae..din wana do anyth...
den moi biao mei oso sianzz lahzz..she share the same sentiments as moi..so we listen to jj songs..he rockz manzz..hahazz..both of us like him since last sat..when we chatted n knew each other real well..n get realli up close...den moi biao mei bring me to the playground..sumhw...i feel realli tempted to sms him at tat tym..still..pride pulled moi back...den the playground swing was filled up wif pple..den i jus lie on the slide..enjoying the nitex sky..sOOO nice ya noee...den..well..memories flooded moi..begin to sing songs wif moi biao mei..how i wish tym cld jus stopped there..haizzz...
tmr gg chem...aft dat go study AGAIN..i m sick of tis kinda life..olevels..can u jus get awae asap..but ironicalli..i believe..end of year..life will be harder for moi..haizz..
the wall btw us ishx buildin up..we r getting real far apart..i belive one dae..our promise will be broken sumhw..still..i wana sae..i have faith...
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