arghh....quite tired tis wk..i felt as if my energy was drained out...bt dun wan..i wana expend my energy....the battle has started...haiz...
duno why...i was so tired tis wk..esp todae...haiz...hmm..let me tink...tis early wk was a turbulent one...family stuff...haiz...i din realli show anyth in sch...bt when i going back hm..i realli dun feel like gg back hm sumhw....i duno wana face dat tense atm...dat kinda stupid looks...haiz...as i said...i can neva control myself...nor can u take awae the bad habit of mine...well...din sae anyth in claz...haiz..i guess pw mummy n denise hab their own family probs too...so i dun feel like troubling anyone..haiz...
when facing denise...i duno why..i hab a recollection of my past...haiz...duno...i see a shadow of one of them in her...the qualities n character n hw denise treat me...haiz...sumhw i feel as if i saw a copy of her...hahaz...bt well i guess it okiex...at least it's her..gee...nana...anywae...i sort of lose my temper in front of denise..haiz...i guess she ishx dat kinda dun wan quarrel type..so she neva sae anyth n i can feel dat she trying to pu3 chang2..bt dat make me feel more guilty..haiz...
hmmm...todae ms khair...return us a letter we wrote to ourselves last yr...those things inside r realli my past...*him* *him* *him* n *him* i found dat i wrote alot bout...haiz..i find dat those things i wrote inside ishx nth to me nw..i m numb..esp towards my frenz of my past...i used to care bout their feelings n hope to change myself for them...bt as i look at the letter....i told myself...DUMB...hahaz...i duno why i hab dat kinda thinking..jus find dat i m dumb enuff to tink dat e frenship wld last n wanted to change myself for them...hahaz...haiz...dumb mi sia..kekex...well..i guessed nw i m dependent on moiself...to me..i m moiself...i wont change moiself cos of anione animore..unlesss i lub dat person...e letter make me feel dat the frenship shld end earlier..duno why...haiz...i shldnt hab gave a damn all along...
the last part of the letter ishx still in my mind..my goals..yahx...i will work towards it de.. =) jus wonder why i din write the letter to be confidential...cos alot of things i wrote inside realli confidential...kekex...
hmmm...lessons were okiex to me...ehx...oh yahx..i was browsing tru a mag which ms khair was angry dat it was at the table...duno why..jus feel dat i shld look at it when i dun look at it at all one...n guess wad i saw him featured inside..diaoz diaoz diaoz...actualli i din wana look at the pic de...bt sumhw...instinct told me sumth inside will interest mi..n i looked...yahz realli interest mi sia...hahaz..diaoz lohx...like dat oso can see him..hahaz...dotx...why e mag wld nt land in other sch bt us...wld nt land in other claz bt mine..wld nt land in other pple hand bt mine...hahaz...
hmmm..sat need go for deco...bt i guessed i wont be dere for long...got sum stuff to attend.. =P
n yahz...gota rush hmwk...hahaz...
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