face with three blows...wad can i do..help..hu can help..or rather...do i need help..do i wan help..i dun seems to wan anyth...nt at all..i dun no wad m i looking for? concern, care, love, pity..wad?! i duno..i felt so lost..i dun noe wad i wan..dun ask me..me myself oso duno wad i wan..u can help me...i duno...argh...
u left me everyth...bt wad i do for u..u tel me..if it's within my ability..i do it..bt wad we wan...i duno...u have ur own circle of frenx le..u seems happiex..den i still need to hold on..i m hurt...hurt..u noe..nO...nt at all...u choose to avoid..i tel..u...i duno..i duno.."ya we realli are...bt..i realli duno wad to do bout it." can u help me..instead of jus leaving things as it ishx...n telling me ya...we are......... wad can i do...i m jus a gal..a teary gal..one hu duno wad to do..can u tel me..even dere ishx a prob...i m left wif it...den wad can i do..if u dun care...i dun one to be alone...i dun wan..bt u dun seems to understand...perhaps we are from different world ritex from e start..we shld nt have known each other...shld nt...we shld nt hav gt so close..we shld nt hab...it hurts both parties tis wae...why did we go against fate in e first place...cos of ur determination...ur support..ur assurance...i go ahead...bt hab u known...cos of u..i lost alot of things...NO...u duno...i dun need ur pity...bt can u stop giving me a cold shoulder...i dun like it at all..i lost alot alot...can u make me feel dat's it ishx worth it..cos of u..i m malign..cos of u..i lost my pillar of support...cos of u...pple start avoiding me..cos of u...pple thinks that i m giving them lots of probs... cos of u...i was scolded once n again..cos of u...i did sumth against my heart..cos of u...i lost my dearest...cos of you..i lose other pple's trust..cos of you..pple start to gib me dat kinda look...bt i dun ask for anyth..i dun wan u to help me..bt can u make me feel dat's it's worth it...bt it dun seems to be so at all..den wad can i do...nth....i can onli cry to myself...i can onli keep it...even if i tel u..why i m i filled wif hatred..does it help..u hav ur own world..i have my own world..we realli shldnt hab start knowing n accepting..perhaps..i m jus deceived all along..i was blind...blind blind..u left me all alone..wad m i to do nw...wad can i do..u gib me cold shoulder again n again..n sae dat we r nt as b4..den wad can i do..if u dun wana tok it out..wad can i do..TEL ME...TEL ME..I WLD DO ANYTH IF U TEL ME..bt did u...nt at all...
i hate i hate i hate...i hate my past...get it..i hate my past...i hate myself..i hate myself...for holding on...for bein stubborn..when i noe...things wont get ani beta...i hate...myself..i hate myself........argh......why shld i live on......i hate......i hab no strength animore...i m breaking dwn..can u save me...no..cos u choose to step out of my world n go into other pple's world..den wad can i do..pull u back? dat isn't necessary..since ur heart isnt wif me...i duno...i hate myself...for forgiving u tym n again..i hate my soft hearted personality...i shld hab leave u frm the start..perhaps..i shld hab nt known u at all...n tis pain wld stop...n neva appear at all...............
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