*heartbroken + teary + disappointed ++++*
haix..
everytym if gt 2 entries in a row..
it means sumth bad..
nahx..
finalli i understood..
understood her feelings n stuff
i dun wan to hold on le
since from e start
she believed her instead
instead of asking me
i noe..
she had her own feelings to care bout
bt if i continue to tink bout her feelings
n nt my own
i m the one hurt deeply in e end
so i wld rather nt
pardon me for putting myself b4 you
bt i gave chance and tym to consider
bt all i get ishx more n more misunderstandings
n u sided n sided with them
which left me w/o a word
to explain myself
ishx tis fair?
wad if u 're treated so
wad wld u feel
a fren dat u loved
a fren dat u tot wld understand hw u feel
a fren dat u tot wouldnt betrayed u
a fren whom u tot wld stand by u
a fren whom u tot she wld support u
in e end
it was a blank all along
jus my wishful thinking
whether or nt ishx rumours dat u all tot to be
i wld gib u a clear ans dat it was nt at all
it was nt a rumour
i swear
y m i so sure
i cant sae
bt i swear it was the truth all along
of wad i wrote b4 wad the bitches sae of me
they din realised dat.....
well...i cant sae much
bt well...
i can onli sae
ge qiang you er
u neva noe
hu wld be ur fren or foe
ishx those probs that caused us to be together
bt ishx oso those probs dat caused us to break up
wad's the meaning of tis
i duno
well
bt sumth dat can be confirmed
ishx
dere wont be a tym when u need to solve those probs for me again
cos....
i cant organise wad th had take place b4 n aft
i bu shi zai zheng dui ni
bt towards them
i can onli sae
get lost!
i hate you all
i dun need a reason for the ending le
cos i dun wish to noe too
e more i find out
e more i noe wad u all tok bhind me
e more i hate you all
e more i feel like jus giving u all a tight slap
stop spreading
stop putting th as if u re are alwaes in e ritex
pls man
i din expect u all to be so shameful
jus tinkin dat u re are in e ritex all tym along
n tinking that i m the core reason
dat's nt e pt..
perhaps
u all r jus being childish
so childish dat i cant even stand it
shameful gals
haix...
duno
i hate to hear sumone tel me
"dey still tink dey r in e ritex all along"
i din expect u all to be such people
hu dun admit to ur mistakes
these two n a half yrs
i hav been wrong bout u all
jus wrong
i tink too well of u all le..
all u all wan me ishx ask u all
ask u all
ask u all
ask u all
i dun wan
why mus i ask
bt nt u all
cos u all have been taking the initiative all along?
*pui*
i dun tink so at all
did u all
ask bout it
fat hope
i din blame u all at all
it's till
e daes when i heard wad u all sae bhind my back
i blamed
i indeed blamed
i blame u all
i hate you all
u all started the whole th
by saying th behind my back
backstabbers...
u all tink i blame
bt u all duno wad i tink
haha
i cant stop bt laugh at u all
aft so long
u all still dun understand
foolish
stupid
pple
jus cos of her
n her
n her
n her
i hate you!!!!!
u make me misunderstand others
i hate you
grr..
din noe bout it
haix..duno
wadeva
jus get ur bks off my hse asap
curse u!
duno
i felt so depressed
din noe dat sumone i trust so much
sumone whom i can tok to so much
nw avoid me
nw cant even tok to me at all
nw cant even communicate wif me
wad's e meaning of tis
haix..
duno
u left me all alone
all alone
w/o giving me tym to adapt
i felt so hurt by you..
avoid avoid avoid
dat's all occurring
i din noe we wld end up avoiding each other
din noe
i tot
it wont eva happen
bt in e end
i was wrong along..
haix...
wad can i sae
i duno
i felt so lost suddenly by her words..
cancelled the her at the wishlist
e wish will neva be fulfilled
wad's e pt of hopin n pining
it wld neva be fulfilled
it wld be a blank in e end
[_________________________]
hu can fill in tis blank above
no one
since u had decided to avoid
it wld 4eva remain as a blank...
[_________________________________________________]
n it gets longer n longer
as i get more n more puzzled
more n more hurt
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u wld neva understand....
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