happiex dae for mi ytd..gee...
morning went cdc..on the bus...saw dat bitch..den usualli when i saw her i need to smile at her one mahx..dat tym after exam i saw her on the same bus too..surprisingly she smile to mi..so i oso had to smile to her norx...so i was like trying to act a smile to her...when she looked awae and soft of roll her eyes..den i was like weird...why she looked awae...din realised dat sumone was bside her until i walked in further..yahx...it was her bf...i was like -_- i was like u scared i noe mehx..embarrassed to let me see u two or wad..diaox...looked awae like dat it's so clear dat u din hab a conscious heart at all..n as if i wana see u all two together like dat..if it was so..had i knew u all were on the same bus..i wld hab wait for another bus..dun wana see u at all nehx...bt i gota sae why looked awae..when u had alreadi annouced so loudly dat tym dat u hab a bf n name start wif "i" in front of the cdc members...of course i noe le lahx...duhx...annouced till like dat...as if u hab bf big like dat..-__- den nw still scared i see mehx...when u hab been so proud of it...duhx..den reached sch bus stop..i was like...dey alight back gate mahx...so i dun wana see them at all..though i m neutral to her bf...so i alighted at the front gate bus stop...jus my luck to see them early in the morn... *pui*
den reached cdc...erhx...read the newspaper bout the earthquake thing..i was so sad for them norx..haix...imagine u lose all ur loved ones to the act of god..haix...veri sad..den dat stupid kelvin still xin zai le huo u noe..he was like saying.."hey the tsunami in wild wild wet ishx veri fun...bt horx..this tsunami caused by the earthquake so high so thrilling...n horx..when it flow into the swimming pool as shown in the news it's so beautiful.." den me xin ee n huiting was like....-__- mei you tong qing xin... so mani pple died still sae so much..so bad bad ritex...haix...den he kept on rattling on and on..grr..haha...bt i noe he jus playing nia nahx..
den cdc started..did the recuitment drive thingy...den veri cute nehx..the plastic..u drew a pic on it horx...mus big big one nahx on the SOFT plastic...den bring it into the oven...den u can see hw the plastic fold in and den out n becum smaller n smaller...kekex...n horx..it becum hard le aft dat...i tink see ishx beta then saying bahx.....
den aft dat..ehx..i went to tok norx as dey choosing costumes..den sumone told me bout her pt of view nahx..i kinda soft hearted...cos well..i realli duno wad ishx she tinking..ishx she siding wif dat bitch or wif me..i duno...at one tym..i heard pple telling me u re evil n cruel..betraying me behind my back..when i remember clearly dat u told me b4 dat u hate to be betrayed as u hab been betrayed once too...so i was kinda...why u betrayed me when u hate pple to do so...u noe dat kinda feeling ritex..why u hab to do dat to me...i can believe dat the bitch wld certainli betrayed me...dat i hab no doubts...bt towards u..as we breakoff...i tot dat u will n alwaes be my fren n nt jus fren...one whom who will alwaes stae in my memories...one whom i remembered dat u shared the same passion as me..u noe my heart...u noe my secrets..u even noe wad m i feeling ritex frm my expression...u can jus read tru me sumhw...n u care bout me..u noe me well..u noe wad m i dd...u support me..u jus noe me too well dat even if i dun tok...u noe wad m i feeling...u noe everything of me so clearly dat perhaps towards certain things...u can even noe it beta than i noe myself...bt as wad i heard frm other pple..it seems...dat i m wrong bout u..i shld nt tink of u so highly...u r capable of any acts...u wear a mask everydae..u seems so gd to me..bt evil in ur heart...u betrayed me...dat's the most impt th dat i wld nt believe it at all..at first...bt as daes go by...wif so mani pple telling me so mani things..i start to realise perhaps...i realli tink too highly of you..bt as i tok to dat sumone...it seems dat u r trying to leave me alone....n let things stae this wae..dun wana provoke anyth animore..later i misunderstood u again..i was like ...argh...felt like crying hard....i duno wad r u tinking...wad r u trying to do..hu r u actualli supporting...r u wif me or r u wif dat bitch..or r u as usual...having ur neutral stand again...bt we had breakoff for five months le...i m sure u had a stand dat will certainli sway to one side...bt well..i guess u side wif that bitch bahx..since u r alwaes wif her...toking to her..she will jus tel u things dat can convince u...bt actualli..i wld sae it veri clearly here...the quarrel had started btw me n dat bitch at first...n u werent involved at all in the first place...it was a silent break wif u...why u choose to listen to dat bitch pt of view bt u neva wan to listen to mine..u noe it breaks my heart to see u choosing to listen to her bt nt me..i tot...seriously...i THOUGHT dat u noe me beta than dat bitch noe me...hence...u wld approach me...n ask me wad's happening...i noe ur ans wld be...u all wan me to approach u all instead...bt i jus wana sae...does it matter hu take the initiative when we r such close than ever closer gd frenx...approach u all...everyth mus i approach u all one..izzit fair to me...nw ishx two against me one...or rather three against one...do u tink i wld approach you all..when so mani r against me?!...will u?! moreover, i dun even noe wad u r tinking...why silent break btw me n u...i tot i wld certainli break wif dat bitch...bt not u... bt well..i guess u all still tink dat u all r in the ritex ritex frm the start...jus cos of I NEVA APPROACH U ALL AND ASK U ALL FOR THE REASON...ishx tis fair...perhaps to you all it's fair aftall...bt aft being 2 yrs 7 months 26 daes 6.45 hrs of frenx...wif patched n break in btw which i tot wld make us understand each other beta...in the end...we still break off...n ritex frm the start..i din blame u all for the breaking of the frenship aft all...to mi..i do feel dat i m in the wrong..bt it takes two hands to clap..hence....i guess...i m partly in the wrong...i mean u all tink dat u all r neva in the wrong..i duno if it's true...bt i do heard frm pple dat...ritex frm the start...u all neva tot dat u all r in the wrong at all....u all tink dat u r r alwaes ritex...i neva neva neva tot dat...aft so many daes of bein together...u all still tink dat u all r in the ritex n neva wrong..n put the blame on me n jus me...well..i hab nth to sae if u all tink tis wae...as wad i said..it's three against one...no matter wad i tink n wad i said...i m still at the losing end..it's like a tug of war...three against one..whu will win?...i guess u all noe the ans too..i duno wad to do...can u all..or rather u let me noe wad u re thinking of...i noe u r nt capable of such xia jian acts like dat bitch...bt u neva let me noe ur stand n feelings at all..neva..i can onli hear frm sum pple..n as dey tell me..i can onli sae..it's a half half...sum pple told me u betrayed me too..sum pple told me u din at all..in fact...the person dat i shld approach ishx u...so wad r u thinking...i m caught in btw...i duno hu to believe...perhaps...i cld onli sae...pls stop taking a neutral stand..bt if u side wif dat bitch..i hab nth to sae...cos i tot u noe me too well...bt in the end...things hab to end tis wae..i duno...let it be...if u dun wana sae anyth nor tel me bout wad u feel bout tis silent break aft all..since...intiative are neva taken...
okiex enuff of this sad thing...though i m realli in a conflict wif myself...well..i put it dwn first..den aft cdc...i went to eat wif them...din noe dat it included them...bt well...as wad i said last tym...i striked awae the "her"in my wish list...perhaps...i stopped waiting le..i m tired enuff...since aft being frenx n close frenx for so long..u avoided me n think dat u cant tok to me...i give up..i m tired enuff...well..perhaps striking the her ishx the end..realli the end to the prolong torture...my heart dun feel anyth nw when i see her..i dun feel dat kinda wana reconcile animore..i dun feel dat kinda wana tok to her bout us animore...i dun feel dat kinda jealousy when she was wif dey all instead of me...like ytd..when go studio rehearsals..she was dere toking to chor ming bout stuff...though i m veri near...i din bother to listen or look at her...perhaps...my waiting...my heart towards her ishx realli dead..dead...ritex aft i striked her name off...u disappoints me the most...u hurt me the most...haix...suan le..i guess since u find it so hard to be frenx wif me..n i m nt under the list of the person u wana hab bside u...suan le..i dun tink u care bout wad i feel aftall...
den i went bn bbq..saw dat bitch again when i was walking out of the grand audit..suay man...den gt a auntie n uncle approach me..cos dey duno hw to tel their relatives where was chung cheng...den wanted to find a public fone..den i was like...raining so heavily...u all wana find a public fone...so i lend then my fone to call norx...den aft dat tel their relatives where tis sch ishx...haha...den i din expect dey all to ask me bout the charges n wanted to pay..i was like..huhx..dun need nahx..it was free outgoin aftall..kekex...den ms lai..walked pass scare me...haha...den she was like..wow...so helpful...of course i m ... =X...geee....
the comments given by cindy during the rehearsal gave me alot of encouragement...let me feel dat i shld con wif my passion..gee..thanks cindy...gee......
den walked out...luckily the rain was nt so heavy le..den pw rushed me cal me go off..so i neva tied my hair..n i hate it kaex...cos i scared later make my face gt pimples...gee...den quickly go parkwae mac tie hair..oh it's toilet i mean..haha...
den went bbq le...raining...drizzle bahx..den i saw the guys trying to light the fire..i was like..so cham nehx...dey trying so hard...bt well..i cant help..u call me light the fire..my definition ishx..put match stick..let the charcoal be on fire...n yahx...dat's it...gt fire le..can cook le...gee...so i cant light...haix...den went to the shelter..den denise took pics me took too...she oso gt took pics of the sea...bt well my one nt digi..so i cant realli noe i take nice nt..so din take...gee...
finalli the fire realli lighted le..began cooking...den...dey cook ..bt i guessed alot of pple veri hungry bahx..n sh daughter went hm b4 the bbq even started...haix..den gota escort her out..kekex...den i when i was eating the chicken wing..i cant stand it..itr was ssssoOOooOOooo oily..bt i gt nth to eat except dat u see...the fishballl veri fast no more le...bt well i gt eat nahx...bt the amt i eat ishx lesser than wad i usualli eat in other bbq..argh...n gt one realli full of oil n fatty meat...eEeeEks...when i ate it..i immediately spit it out n threw it awae...gee...i noe i waste food..bt i realli cant eat it..okiex...so the food was okiex...den went to take pics of the nitex east coast...wif pw denise..melissa..shu han..jin juan...yong hui ah ma...i m so happiex she still remember she ishx my ah ma norx...tot she forgt le..den when i asked her for food..n she gave me a chicken wing...n sae hu mus u thank..den i sae yong hui...den she sae..no mus call me one..so i sae yong hui ah ma...gee....so happiex..n she gave me the chicken wing..gee..den oso wif chen jiao...hu i forgt huhx..duno...shld be all bahx...ehx..like still gt more..haha..duno..wait till i wash the photos first..gee...den take take..pw mummy need go hm le..i oso kinda tired..so went hm too...den denise was taking photos of the underpass...me oso..i took sum..gee...then pw mummy was like..aiyo..u all whole life neva see underpass b4..or u all scared can neva cum east coast again..bt we dun care..stilll take..gee...n i told denise dat the trees dun take the pics...den she was so scared aft dat...sorriex worx..gee..den we or rather i onli...act crazy as we walked the underpass..gee...den so happiex...veri hyper...gee...den take taxi..gee..mummy wan me take de...gee...i haven use finish my 36 film..haix...so escape i gota take pics too...gee..nice nice...lalala...duhx..me...haha...yeah...so happiex..lala...okiex fine...i do hope fri i can realli make it to escape norx...haix...i realli hope..bt melissa told me the orientation will overrun one..so perhaps i cant go WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!....pw mummy!!!!!!! argh...if realli i late..perhaps i dun go wild wild wet.. nxt tym then go norx..haix...i gota add wishes to my wish list...yeah!
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