to those out there..once again..sorriex to make u all change link again..heex...sorriex...i jus like blogspot beta...
anywae...tis ishx my new blogskin...hav been doin it since i cum home ytd..which means i have been touching up for bout a dae? kekex..well...i jus wan my blog nice nice..heex..do comment on it..thanks...
anywae tis entry gotta b a long one..
exams r over..bt i dun like the feeling of it..so wad..i duno..i mean ya...during exams i m realli stressed out...for the whole wk of exam..i slept merely an average of 3 hrs...can u believe it..haha..pw mummy n sh daughter will noe best..kekex...cos sh ishx oso one of me..muahaha...except dat she tend to fall aslp..n cum to sch unprepared wif lotx of unfinished chapters...i cant imagine hw she cope..bt well..i dun like tis period either..u have to worry bout ur results..ytd was consoling pw mummy...she ishx realli feeling so dwn by her results..she so scared dat she wont do welll...in e meantime while consoling her..i was worried myself..jus dun wana sae out..later make her more worry..she realli v worried n scared..neva c her lik dat b4..no wonder ytd at the sch library..i sense dat sumth ishx wrong wif her..bt she doesnt wana sae..so well..i neva sae anyth...haix..i duno..this end yr realli sux...i hate tis man...i mean for last yr streaming i dun have to worry so much..nw i have to tink so much if i can PASS or nt..listen gd..ishx PASS..nt even if i can do WELL or nt...get so pissed off..realli pissed off by the fact dat even i worked so hard..wad's the results...hai shi yi chang kong...y mus i do so well in sec 1 n 2..i rather be an average student lik in pri sch...at least my expectations wont b so high dat if i cant do it..i wont b so sad..it's jus cos sec1 n 2 i did well..if i fall i will b so damn frustrated n upset..so i have to do well tis yr n nxt yr...i wana change but i cant...my expectations are set too high...beyond my ability...bt i cant control myself...i cant bring myself to tel myself dat well ur expectations r beyond wad u can do..i cant even ctrl myself..wad ish tis man...
todae ishx marking dae..hol...i m goin to enjoy it..cos tmr ishx taking bac of three papers if i m nt wrong..n one of it ishx physics...physics sux...tis ishx e sub dat i realli so pissed off wif..i can do well in e tests..bt neva in major exams...i dun understand y..anywae..i didnt finish the whole paper..stupid..
for all sub...except amaths n phy...rest i tried my best..i gave my best...wadeva the results are..i cant cry..i cant..i mus ctrl myself...i did my best..dat's the best i can give...bt i guess...i will cry certainly..wad a contradicting me..i m realli dull wif nth in my grey matter....
for amaths...i cant do proving identities..i duno why..i can do it last time..in all my practise...bt when it cum to test..nth cums out...n for the amaths..well i wld sae the paper ishx easy..realli easy...bt so wad if it's easy...i wont do well..i wont...the qn are all so familiar..bt due to lack of practice n a blank in my brain...i cant figure out wad method to use..esp for the remainder thereom..i mean dat's an easy chapt...ms shar said ishx easy b4...n quite a no of qn frm dat chapt came out...bt well..gt one qn...guess wad i tot of the solution onli aft e exam..when i was learning my bio for the nxt dae..i mean all the qns like ta men ren shi wo wo bu ren shi ta men..ishx so familiar...n yet i my working are lik so ridiculous...n my log..another easy chapt..i guess dat qn my whole th wrong..which costs me 4 to 5 marks..darn it..hw m i goin to get an A for my amaths...i guess everyone will fare well..except me...wad's wrong wif me...
n bio i give up my hopes on it..i cant do well in major exams dat's it...bio was hard real hard to me...ruth said was easy..n my mcq everyth i neva tink properly then do..no time..cos i do section B first..n it was so hard...esp the smoking diseases..forgt to revise it..anywae dat shld b chapt 16..which ishx nt in the exam syllabus..bt they tink dat it's oso part of respiration..well..wad can i sae...
i haven go check my debrief schedule for tmr..duno when's paper one eng..perhaps ishx tmr..well..i guess i will cry hard for dat paper..cos me argumentative..well...those pple ard me shld noe..i cant fail eng..cant...i cant...eng means alot...it means alot..help..i cant fail...can any1 understand...y...y mus i be so stupid in eng...
ytd was toking bout eng wif pw n sh...well...pw n i totalli agree dat we wan to b gd in eng rather than in chi...if we were to compare...we will be stuck wif eng for rest of our sch life no matter wad..jc we gt the GP paper..i wonder...hw mani times will i pass for dat paper..
chi wasnt dat gd either...compo gt bac..i mean it jus hit my expectations ba..smy chuo zi make my marks lower..i shldnt be penalised for chuo zi one lohx..suan le..i give up...
well..duno if i shld drop lit...at the rate my eng ishx improving..or rather has it eva improved..i cant do E lit..i duno..feel like dropping lit..cos me eng ishx so lan...it's so ridiculous to do E lit when u cant do well in eng...well...i con to hold on to lit ishx cos of my passion towards it..bt i guess i need to let tis passion fade awae..let it fade..n can i then bring myself to drop lit..perhaps it isn't a choice when i get bac my papers..perhaps..the sch will force me to drop..given my eng..ytd the last paper..lit..i was so lack of vocab..the essay i wrote realli like pri sch students write one...mayb pri sch students will write beta than me..one qn was asking bout Viola's character in the extract...n i gt study well dat extract...jus forgt wad vocab to use for her character...it's like so pissed off lohx..u noe her character..bt u duno hw to express in words..
well goin out later..myself...jus wan time for myself..duno where to go...jus wander bout...wadeva...
well noe frm sumone sumth..pls...dun alwaes sae dat u all cant stand me...bt have u all told me anyth bout it..NO NEVA..so shut up bout it..i mean i tot u r the one hu sae communication btw us ishx e most impt..bt have the two of u told me bout u all cant stand my wadeva..i dun even noe wad u all cant stand me..i cant even spell out wad u all cant stand me bout..all u all noe wad to sae n do ishx tell pple we break cos we cant stand her...wad the...bt have u all told me...me myself onli noe u all cant stand me n thses all i noe...wad u all cant stand..wad i have done..to make u all tink so..have u all said it b4..neva in my life..neva had i heard it b4..isn't it unfair to go round telling pple the reason y we break ishx dat u all cant stand ?(WAD????)...i noe even noe a single detail bout it..i dun even wth u all toking bout..instead i m alwaes the mediator btw u all two in e past...n cos she dun wish to voice out her opinions i help her n stuff...n behind my bac..u all sae u all cant stand me (WAD?)..wad i have done in e past ishx to improve the communication...n u all jus forget bout it n jus sae wad u all wan w/o telling me anyth..have u all..no..neva...i still rem u stayin wif me at my hse dwnstairs bus stop b4 goin for rehearsal for hu de chuan qi...n i told u wad she dun like n stuff..i did my part..i told u our tots n secrets..bt have u all eva..reflect DEEP upon urself b4 criticising other pple..
well...n dun pull dwn catherine into ur all tinking...i mean wadeva...u all go ard telling other pple dat she...well i dun wish tok bout wad u all sae bout her..wad's btw us ishx btw us...no matter wad...she ishx nt one of u all in my tinking..cos at least..i can trust her..bt nt u all..hu go ard telling tales when me myself dun even noe anyth bout wad u all feeling in e past..make me feel more dat our breakup ishx worth it..more worth it than eva... we shldnt have noe each other..we shldnt have the same dreams..we shldnt have the same passion...all e more i shldnt have worked so hard n put in effort in tis frenship n in e end...wad i get...jus pple malign me..i hate u all to e core...jus get off...n shut ur all big mouth up..even if u all dun shut up..wadeva...i dun care wad th u all sae animore...totalli detached...bt dun let me hear it again...n stop being backstabbers...u urself hate to b betrayed...n yet u urself betrayed me...i neva knew u are such a person..i trusted u so much..n u jus betrayed me lik tis...get lost...
wadeva...i feel so bottled up n fury inside me..bt deep inside me..u all realli hurt me...wad u all did to me.i will neva forget...the hurt n damage u all inflict on me...neva will i forget...get losts CURS...
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