sobs sobs sobs..everyth dat i do for sum1 ishx nv recognise..they tink dat i'm nt takin it seriously..bt yes i'm..n they themselves..nt at all..mayb i take th too seriously ba..perhaps..bt why..m i alwaes e one..i dun lik th to b lik tis..y m i such a serious person..y shld i tak evryth so seriously when no does dat...it seems dat i'm onli finding waes to get myself trap...
anywae...stop calling me to studi n studi..i feel so trapped by studies le..stop tis man...i 'm so trapped by it...stop calling me to studi..i noe my limits..so pls..stop controlling me..i noe my limits..i'm so tired of tis...since th turn out tis wae..then stop contacting me if u wan...in tis wae...u can get wad u wan...
well i'm so frustrated by physics..those facts n stupid qn dat i cant comprehend at all..why does physics exist...i hate it..y mus i studi so hard...y cant i relax a single bit...it's so frustrating..
th arent getting so gd..i dun lik my life..i dun lik it at all..
todae still hav tuition at 8 which ishx lik will end at 10 plus...ishx so late..n i cant studi aft tuition..certainli v tired by it..cant stand her...y mus her timing b so odd one...grr...
sumtimes i realli dun lik her..she ishx lik so......hey pls..i'm jus askin u qn...i mean u as a tuition teacher..i've to ask u qn dat i duno ritex..she get so fed up wheneva i ask her lotx of qn..i mean i pay 50 dollars for each session..cant i utilise my time..anywae i wana change..bt i scared change le more cham...help...duno lahx...even wana change gotta wait 3 times more..stupid...
anywae was sad dat on my bdae dat dae was ah ma 100th dae frm her death..i'm lik...y mus fall on my bdae..i miss her...bt well i guess my relatives will neva understand..cos they will tink dat i dun love her at all..bt wad do they noe...i guess onli ah ma noes me best..she treated me so gd..or rather she ishx e onli one hu treated me gd out of e whole mum's family there..i nt on close ties wif my father's side there...bt she left me jus lik dat..i rem last time..ishx she hu take cr of me...rem once when her hse was renovating...then me hated dat sound..still small mahx..then keep crying..then she go dwn wif me n eat char siew rice..she c me eat n dun wan eat herself...n mani mani more...i miss her...bt i can neva tel her tis animore...i m nt a person hu express much of my feelings to sum1 i love..cos i'm a bit..hw to sae..mayb shy in dat sense..so i neva told her dat i love her n ishx realli grateful for wad she had done..apparently..she neva gets to noe...even when her body was bein sent to e cremation centre..every1 shouted ah ma..bt i didnt..i duno y...i jus cried n cried..bt inside my heart..i kept calling her...i want to tel her i love her...bt i can neva do so nw...she ishx the best mum n ah ma in e world...she had realli done realli a lot for us...nt askin anyth in return...bt she chose to leave us..i hope dat she ishx happier nw...i dun at all noe hw ishx she nw...y mus her 100th dae falls on my bdae..it's lik..i duno hw to sae...i hope i can go visit her @ e temple...mus c dat dae hw ba...i miss her...miss her...
tmr ishx e 7th month le..abit scared scared..haix..duno...i hate my bdae to fall in e 7th month...gt a lot of th cant do..hw hw hw...haix...
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